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Thursday, December 31, 2009
2009. ive decided to make records of my life here.
and i think ive grown really matured over the years. yeah sure im still joking around and stuff...but, 2009 really is an impact since the last 2 years. Here is what happened in 2009:
ended attachment and graduated from ite. tried to apply poly but failed. enlisted to NS instead. now in SPF. NPCO. cool. while doing time in NS, hani got injured for a month. when she came back, she said something of being mine. but things happened and she chose someone else. heartbroken 1 time. so during fasting month, i get to know this girl. Farhanah. a sweet small girl. we got close and there was chemistry. we dated for 3 weeks before we officialised on 23 october. she means alot to me. only i noe y. on 5 dec, something happened, her dad told her that an agreement has been made abt her engagement. heartbroken 2 times. took me 3 weeks to really let go of her. but now, i still love her, but like i said, ive grown and decided to move on so as not to get hurt. hani broke up wif fat fuck and feels sorry for what she did to me 3 months ago. tried to make up for all the pain i suffered. this time its payback time. im no longer head over heels at her. she is still trying to fall in love with me. aku da tak heran ah. and the fling with lily is happening again..we french kissed at hort park on 14 dec. her relationship is in the rocks. again, she got angry but this time, she likes my kisses. girls girls...tsk tsk..so she's like accompanying me since my break up.
so u see, 2009 is really a shit year for me. i noe i was so optimistic and naive for the last 2 years, but this time i decided to think abt myself.
still in contact with hani. but im planning to stay at this way. next year i'll be graduating from the academy, so i reckon more stories to come. im aiming for a class 2b next year. i want and WILL stay single until i am stable. this heartbreak is too much. girls are such a pain in the ass. and i dun want any serious relationship with them until im stable. im not gonna let myself fall for any girls this time. sure i feel the misses.. but i have to remind myself how painful a heartbreak is. its better to be lonely than heartbroken.
there, my resolution for my life. expecting 2010 to be another roller coaster..but ive decided to be abit darker. dun expect me to smile.
