....Let me hold on to u.....

Monday, January 28, 2008

Weekend was spent mainly to rest..sunday played soccer in the rain...but its ok lah..the rain make me in a having fun mood..

alrite..this coming week got project presentation and housekeeping presentation...its gonna be fast..but i got to do my best so tat i will score high marks for my gpa!

come on..the newly crowned B3 for english..haha..but F9 for maths le..how can like tat? embarassing le...

im sure i can make a wonderful presentation..just be less nervous and give ur best saiful!

need to practice guitar sa...aiyo..how to improve if nvr practice? den my bro wan to jam...aiyo...

laughter is the best medicine

shadow

signing out

@ 12:33 AM

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Hmmm...been a long time since i told u guys about how my life is at home...in my *room* to be specific...

Last i remember...i said...everytime when i reach home,i would feel very depressed as the moment i enter my room,the loneliness will dominate me..and i hate dat..i hate it when i have to think of someone...someone who has not msged me for the whole week...could reach 2-3 weeks sometimes...yea..That kind of stuff...juz bad old times i guess..

Now's a whole new story...yup2...everytime i step into my room,i'll always remember my good old fren juz waiting for me touch him..aha..ok..dat sounds so wrong..

Anyway,hope u guys would have already guessed who he is...

My good old buddy...

actually..he's kinda new..aha..yea..
bought him a month ago..which caused me to finish up my bank ah..lolz..

Ok erm..mayb some of u would have already be thinking dat i'm nuts and stuff...like...how can i call a guitar my fren? Well..yea..i cant explain dat..it's juz simply the only one dat's been there for me..of coz including my other frens who has been there for me too (zal,N and shadow)..but for daily routines,gotta say..he's the only one i hang onto..whom helped me forget bout gurls..XD

My cousins,ayie and alem used to ask me..If a pirate were to question me..do u want me to dump ur guitar into the sea or maybe ur girlfren instead? I would say...dump girlfren better...aha..coz she's juz a pain d heart..and my guitar is the one who has always been there for me..

Conclusion...i'll definitely choose my guitar over my girlfren if such a threat were to be laid on me..understand? aha..ok..dat's juz a joke..

The actual conclusion is dat..the one u really love..is the one that has always been there for u..the one that has always been sitting right beside u in every of ur vulnerable moment...and hence,someday u will know which one u need to save from falling apart..

Moving on to jamming sessions..it has been years since i sweat while playing my guitar in my room..

In my room = sweating??

aha..yup2..Here's a something to show u guys wat i actually do when i play my guitar in my room..Could look wierd to those of u who has never been to a gig or to those who dont listen to post hardcore bands..but i'm juz glad i could show the real me to my bestest frens..

And i'm blaming qyd for exposing me to 'post hardcore' music..lolz..I hate u,can?

aha..jk..i luv it actually..Thanks qyd..=)

And dun laugh at the vid okay..it's juz me..aha..really2..

and yarh..before u guys ask me about the polo shirt i'm wearing in d vid..I'll be honest..I actually forgot to bathe yesterday..and hence the same shirt this morning..aha..Oops..kinda shocked myself..i mean..gosh..i actually forgot to bathe?? aha..wth rite...guess dat shirt is being worn for 3 days arh..lolz..=X

Haz

@ 11:00 PM

Friday, January 25, 2008

zal,near & haz
"The old-time bloggers" =)

Hmmm...Can u see raj's face expression? Of coz not..aha...Oops..

Wonder wat's with these two...hmmmmmmm..

Went to Shuqun sec yesterday to celebrate with raj upon the arrival of his results..He was however depressed when he met us outside of school..

Eventhough he improved from last year..he still failed somehow..his results is 2x more than wat he aimed...which is of coz,u see the reason of his total disappointment..

Anyway,while waiting for him to come out,Kathi's mom approached us..which at first,we dunno who she is ah..aha..it was my first meet up face to face with her mum,not sure if it was zal's first..then we talked and talked while waiting..about JC,MI,poly and stuff..

Her mum was really kind and easy to socialise with..Which made us glad ah..coz we definitely wouldnt want an awkward conversations with someone's parents..aha..definitely a NO NO..

Slowly,came Kathi..with her result..and keep saying i can go into MI..WOOHOO!! aha..our fren raj,standing beside us,getting more and more upset with the sound of dat gurl's voice..

Raj juz kept quiet..we know we gotta console him somehow..coz he suffered a year without his true frens with him in school..except for saturday soccers *which he dun always turn up for*

Ok..so we walk slowly to JE..let him relax his mind..went for lunch..then sit in JE library...of coz the *teen section* ah..aha..and we played the old legend WWE cards..i was d worse player there as i really2 cant dig myself into dat game ever again..but i can try tho..*if i want to*..aha..Oops..

Then comes the thing i hate most...which is asking gurl's number...gosh...get a life can,guys? Wat's the asking numbers for if u guys wont cherish them? U think funfair ah? If u're gonna be someone like me..then can ah..aha..Oops..jk..

Anyway,went to Fool's workplace after dat,but he wasnt there..not sure why..mayb he's in d store? doing something he shouldnt do? aha..u see...dat's wat i call God's retribution..doing something forbidden in d store,d punishment would be,no frens gonna visit u at work..aha..get it?

Ok..dat's juz crap...

Oh yea..before i forgot...kinda had a chat with qyd on the phone last night...till like..wat time was it? 12 midnight? aha..yea..talked for like almost 3 hours..and how glad i am when there wasn't any awkward silence..=)

Guess we juz had alot to talked about..=) No worries..secrets are meant to be kept..hehe..

Lastly,i would like to show u guys a vid of someone dat has changed me throughout and he's still one of the most important ppl in my life...He's Tom Delonge from the old Blink 182..and he has something to say which i myself agrees the most..Hope u guys do too..

Haz

@ 9:34 PM

Sunday, January 20, 2008

im frigging really have tight schedule to comply these days...

sch project, work, rest, social life.

frankly social life is going downward...

im losing my patience...i duno y...

i juz wan to win this game quickly..

but isnt patience a virtue?

ok..so tats y im blogging today..to reflect on my feelings..

maybe i shud remain patient...y the rush?

yeah..dun be an emo shit man...

ok2...i feel better now after reflecting..

alrite..i got powerpoint slides to finish and hand in tonite..gotta rush

i will remain patient..dun breakdown ful..im sure u will win her one day..juz be urself and keep remaining persistant..

keep meeting her and give her gifts and all...

Saturday= soccer was a good outing..we enjoyed dominance and possesion..

ok..i play better in left midfield..striker is a no-no..

no goals although there were shots on target..better luck nxt time

guess thats all

shadow

singing out

@ 8:09 PM

Monday, January 14, 2008

Wah..been trying to post at my blog..but i couldnt post due to some spamming thing..wonder what zal and N would do..anyway i have been wondering why is it that sab's face is still in our blog?..just find it weird..aint they suppose to remove him long ago?(no offense against him)..haha..anyway i gotta thanks haz for letting me into their blog to post..=)

LHZ

@ 11:19 PM

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Friday 11 january:

finish school at 12..went to prayers..

4 pm met hani

saw her came down the stairs..i went to hide at first sight..

while hiding..took deep breathes while expecting for her arrival

so when i saw her i smiled, but got damn nervous

talked..but there was 1 big problem...

most of the time i was acting cool..it so wasnt myself..but its not my fault..i just wanted to be less nervous by being cool...

guess it wasnt good..i ended up acting cool rather than my usual self...

although there were some good conversations..but i felt incomplete..

sigh..the other problem is that she is damn hot..

no she did not wear any sexy outfit

but her physical features are just so tempting...

i ended up confused...damn confused..

even till now im confused..i feel like avoiding her now...

cant get things rite...

alrite so here is my room for improvement

: dun act cool..just be urself

write down topics which will help make conversations..believe me, sometimes ur mind will go blank..so take it as a back up plan..

oh well..just dun act cool next time

Shadow

signing out

@ 10:11 PM

Friday, January 11, 2008

Currently bored in class...got nothing to do eventhough internet's juz a few steps away from me..sigh..hate friday so much..mayb coz of the 60 years old maths teacher and the damn excel module..Excel is like the worse module ever arh..haizzz..

and i'm wearing sweater under the hot sun..sick as ever.. =(

Gave zal,N and raj a tour at SP throughout the afternoon yesterday...and wow...it was damn tiring...zal,as usual,had more interest in looking at secondary girls who turned up for the SP open house instead of wanting to explore the premises..haizz...if i,in the first place,were to noe he is keen to do dat,i wouldnt wanna be his tour guide sia..knn..and dat is also one of the reason why we kept coming back to the convention centre..it's all zal's horny desire ah..aha..

Anyway,when i reached home yesterday..which is sad to say,at night...i jumped straight on to my bed and went to sleep..without even taking anything off me..and when i woke up,i realised i slept with my jeans on and my wallet still in the pocket..aha..gosh..didnt noe i had to go to sleep in such a bad manner..guess i was so sick..=(

Haz

@ 11:14 AM

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Went for soccer..and was dumb enough not to bring my street soccer shoes..

Kinda brought along my slippers instead...so i played soccer with my bestest frens using kaki ayam..aha..

Was fun la..until i realised i got blisters on both of my foot..how to go to work?? must wear boot somemore..aha..haizz...

However,i still went to work...

and damn...some ppl at my workplace actually realised i've been missing for some time..aha.. wow..of coz i was shocked..i thought dat place was full of ignorant ppl..

Anyway,i'm quite unwell right now...so sick...

Mayb coz i caught a cold this morning..

Or mayb i didnt hav enough sleep...coz i keep waking up and going back to sleep over and over again..trying to force myself to start studying...i hate it when dat happens..sigh..

Haz
I need someone whom i could talk to..
Someone who could help me get everything out dat's trapped in me..
I juz cant run away from all these all by myself..
I need dat someone..
I really do...
It's too much for me to handle..

To be the only one to feel the pain..
Dont you know i cant go on anymore?

Could anyone be my living diary?
Anyone? Please?

@ 11:05 PM

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

today i went to meet my ite frens to discuss our entrepeneurship project

argh..tat reminds me..i will have lots of work to do once skool reopens..

well..the days are getting lesser..skool's starting soon...

well..tis fren of mine cant qualify for higher nitec..so tats y she was moody tat day..

she confessed it to me yesterday..i didnt even asked her..she even felt like talking to me on the phone..now tats shocking..

and she promised to make time for me :-D

skools starting soon..i dun tink i'll be free..

i mean im in higher nitec and there is more work to be done..

i want to have a good grade rmb? so tat i can make it to poly.

so i need to focus my time on skoolwork

and tats the main reaslon y i feel tat im not ready for a relationship

i juz dun have the time for commitment..tats y i feel the bet is stupid

tomorrow i wun be free..

ugh..i need to get a part time job..

and hey..maybe i shud help her look for a job..tat way she will be out of her house = can meet me

im so gonna send her home everyday if she has a job..hur hur..

ok2..enuf blabbering..

i was just reminded the time wen i was a small kid u noe..first day of skool...the fear and such..ok..enuf..

im just happy with my life :D..okay i need a job then its perfect

shadow

signing out

@ 9:21 PM

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

hello 2008!

and a HAPPY NEW YEAR everybody

alrite then..

the year started by sleeping..haha..ok seriously

the year started by playing soccer to usher in the new year..

so despite my injury, i decided to play to warm up..

my form was like shit i tell u, i couldnt even execute my trademark...

well..tat alwaes happen rite? especially when u come back from an injury.

u need to work hard to gain back ur best form..

so after soccer went home

eat macdelivery

yummey..

alrite let me note down my 2008 resolutions

-to be a better player in the team.

-work on stamina

-upper body strength

-get a part time job

-dun be too eager to find true love(face it even if u do, u dun have money to do anything)

-make more new friends if possible( i doubt that can happen)

-do well in my studies this year, im graduating soon!!!!

-make a good impression on everybody

-be less shy and nervous

-be more closer to hani

-and all my friends of course :-)

-be more active in msn

-maintain a short haircut

-replenish my bank account

-put more effort and dun give up attitude

-chill at clubs more often

-obtain a car driving license

-stay free from alcohol and cigarette

-destress less often(oops!!)

-watch less porn(i doubt this can happen cos my ite frens will surely watch porn in class one..-_-)

-support The Rock movies which he act in

the list would go on if i continue...well..simply put i wanna be a better person in everything

alrite now to that passerby 89...

maybe u shud start by telling me ur real name

and sorry cos im in my bad mood and i dont care abt others wen im down

so yarh

shadow

signing out

@ 5:38 PM