....Let me hold on to u.....

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

heh..how fate turns and bump into u...

so today..went to jp pizza hut to eat...

was enjying good food until my fren shocked me...

danial: eh saiful!!!!! hani lah!!!! (pats my back)

immediately i was choking on my food lah....chicken..

so i saw her..her frens saw me and told her abt me..

so yarh,she went to checked,after tat she diasappeared..

so msg her...asked if she going home alone later...she said no..

so after i finish my food and everiting, i went to send one of my frens to the mrt station as he dun noe where it is...

on the way back, saw her n her frens heading towards to the interchange..

we smiled..then i asked if she is going home alr...bla bla...

at least we met outside coincidentally rite...

shadow

signing out

@ 11:53 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Helloooooo.....................

ok..im juz superbored..so i decided to...POST!!! aha..dat was a heavy decision ok..

Let's see...hmm...

Yea..i've been longing to post about d holiday trip i had when i smuggled myself to Malaysia..And i wanna say sorry for not telling u guys before i went off..I mean,who cares right if i were to tell...Like anyone wanna visit my grave like dat if i didnt make it home..(seriously,dat's wat i really2 think)

So erm..My reason for leaving Singapore was juz to grab some holiday excitement with my overseas cousin since i was so stressed out at dat time..And was trying to forget some problems i had..I rather not write it here..Such a waste of energy to type about some stupid love story..But my good frens would jolly well noe wat was it about..

Anyway,first morning there was a bummer..My cousin had to go to school..my uncle and aunt had to work..So i was kinda left alone in the terrace for awhile..Haizzz...Lucky i brought along my lappie..No connection tho..But there sure are movies for me to watch...=)

My cuzzie got home earlier than i thought..Got to know he cabut from school halfway..aha..Actually,he cabut'd earlier,but he went to his fren's house to jam and have breakfast...Gosh..To think that i was sitting in his house all alone like some detention room while he was walking around his village enjoying his life,damn..dat juz makes me feel like banging his head d next time i meet him..yup2..i think i will...=D

We lazed around from afternoon till night..The next day,same old routine..He gotta go to school..But this time..he came home way2 later..i got so worked up..Coz yesterday,he got home at around 11am..and today,he got home at 2pm..Gosh..dat's 4 hours differences..Cant u imagine how depressed i was waiting for him from 7am with nothing to do in his house..I mean,there was a TV..but i dun watch TVs..and dat's really2 true...

When he entered the house,he told me he had great news..I was,however,not in the mood to be entertained coz i was pretty pissed with him returning late..but yea..watever..i juz asked him to go on with the storytelling..

For the moment,I was terribly shocked after hearing his story..and..i chose not to believe him..Coz he lies alot..**like for real**

Example..While we're still at home,havent even bath yet,his friends keep calling coz they have been waiting for us in a coffeeshop for like an hour,and he,told his friends there's a traffic jam on the other side of the road,the bus wont be coming anytime soon..So yea,something like dat..Cant u see..How can i believe him as simple as 123..He never tried to keep any thoughts about his frens who have been waiting in the coffeeshop while he was still slacking at home..Gosh..How would i know if he is telling me d truth..

Anyway,he told me dat a girl asked him to pass a message to me..

Saying dat she misses me so much,and she never had any intention of making me a place for her to vent her anger on..

She also said dat she envies me for being so understanding everytime it comes to her..

And lastly,she hoped dat i would check on her soon..(Mayb check on her blog or something,looking at how her days went)

Erm..Throughout the few days there..i couldnt believe any of it,every part of the msg..but,not until i came back..i accidentally bumped into her..Before the few minutes i saw her face at dat time,i was imagining a fairytale,where we would actually meet someday..aha..never thought d fairytale would happen afew minutes later..

After dat bump,we went out d next day..i believed every word of it by then..but..those words didnt last long..i dun wanna write anything bout it..coz i dun wanna blame anyone..and i dun like blaming..it doesnt matter..who cares...in the end it's all about ourselves..others dun matter..right?

Anyway,back to d holiday trip i was having when my cuzzie juz got home from the cybercafe..

He said he had another good news..a shocking one too..He told me our band's gonna perform tonight..i was like..my goodness..is this for real?? i mean..no practice,no songs and we're juz gonna perform?? It's dat simple as abc??? ok..i should stop the abc n 123 shit..

Anyway,we rushed to Hibri's,our drummer's house,to jam...Coz he has a jamming room in his house..with 4 guitars,a bass and a drumset..not forgetting hardcore amplifiers..Gosh..it was freaking cool..As for d songs,i had to learn the chords on dat very day..My goodness..i was so sure i used up all my brain juice..

Cut long2 story short..we performed twice..on wednesday and friday..We actually wanna perform thrice..Dat is,on thursday too..But they wont let us in coz they respect the night *Malam Jumaat* as on that night,Islamic followers read Surah Yasin and jamming would be the opposite of wat Followers of God would do..Dat's wat they said on the microphone,but,seconds later,they put on music with OMG volume..So we're like..*Look who's talking*..Cunts...

As for the performances..we played some of our songs and mostly from Malaysian hot bands..People dat watched us perform were very supportive..How i wish i could thank them personally one day...aha...Like i have guts to approach them like dat..lolz..

Here are some videos we luckily gotten..
Thank God we got some...=)

Soundchecking...

Streets Of Uptown (cover)

Come Back Girl (one of our songs)
I kinda didnt do great in the lead guitar role..sorry..=S

If the video doesnt turn up even after u took the time to read my whole entry,do try visiting this blog using Mozilla Firefox..There are chances Internet Explorer is having slow transfer rate in embedding internet videos..i also dunno why..dun ask me..=S

@ 8:20 PM

the tournament yesterday was action packed..

though there are teams that were trashed terribly,

our team avoid thrashing courtesy of saiful, the stand in keeper of the day..

first match, a 2-1 win..conceded by penalty. stupid rules.

second match was the best though we lost.

2-3 loss..but i saved tons of shots to keep the team from demoralizing..saved two penalties by risking his life for the team. :D

unfortunately i wanted to play outfield in the quarter finals..tat led to our 3-0 loss..shud have been the keeper but i wanted some action...stupid me

so the saves are easily forgotten...but who could 4get our first tournament win as the opening match? maybe our team shud stick together to make out team united.

alrite, now on to the next team report....

the underage formely known as MSK (due to a buyover of club ownership) had to put up a tough group B qualifying matches.

their first match was a 1-1 draw though they had much of the ball and scored first, the opposition equalised just in time to save their skins from humiliation.

their first match performance was good for a team that was made from scratch, led by HAZIQ. the only survivor of MSK, who rallied despite death threats made by external parties to make him back out

second match for the underage: it was a must win match for the underage, in order to have a life line for qualifying.

the match was a tight one..very entertaining as both sides attacked turn after turn...however, an ispirational HAZIQ led the team to a comfortable 2-0 win with two goals under his belt, making him the stop scorer of his team.

after long calculations, HAZIQ team for qualifying looks dim as two other teams have 2 wins and for HAZIQ'S team to qualify is another must win match.

they fight their favoured rivals whom they had hoped for a win so that they cud qualify..all they had to do was to avoid a loss..

the match started horribly as they conceded 2 goals within 5 mins..

but the team was determined and eqaulised in a frame of 3 mins...

everything was going well until the dying stages...

haziq teamates decided to have a substitution to bring in fresh legs, but it led to a confusion as the team were unaware that the match was still on, giving their rivals another goal,

their opponents finished them of,with 1 min to spare, ending the match 4-2, an entertaining one, i must say, as HAZIQ team made a comeback, from 2-0 down only to lose due to uncertainty.

bravo for team HAZIQ for giving us an entertaining football and the spirit of fighting

there were better teams, playing possesively and attacking decisively...

how abt we play possessive? we are not even a 3 star team..face it, we dun have alot of star players...

we MUST NOT continue pretending that we have a good attack..we need to pass back in order to attack..our team cant play solo. if we cant get thru..we must pass back. before attacking again

dun let friendships sour because of this..okay?

sometimes i get jealous of other guys get her attention...maybe im just impulsive? gals are soooooooo troublesome....wish i have no feelings

shadow

signing out

@ 6:19 AM

Friday, November 23, 2007

the whole day was pucked up...

tats all

oh ya..

gonna put my life on the line 4 the tournament..

keep pushing no matter how tired

now tats the spirit of an underdog

shadow

signing out

@ 11:00 PM

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

well well..two nights ago i was abit distracted...

but little did i noe tat today sumting wud happen

u see,

my fren finally brought me the special chocolates which i asked him to bring back from his work place...

so in the morning, i was like, hey hey, wats this?

my mind went blank for the whole morning..

i mean, i didnt expect it to happen today.

wasnt planning to meet her

so next ting is tat i asked her to meet me during lunch

ok, so again i feel like a sec 1 boy..

feel shy to meet her, u noe, the heart beating umpteen times..

so during lunch i hang ard wif my frens first..

before i went to talk to her..

sheeda asked if i wan to talk to hani privately,

i did not hear properly, but i just said, yeah..

so sheeda left the table, leaving the two of us..

so, being the guy, i decided to start the conversation..

i was damn nervous mind u..

so talked n talked, n i showed her the chocolate (comes in a box)

so hani asked, is that a soap?

den i said, what 4 i wan to giv u soap?! u tink i got noting better to do huh? haha!

den she asked, wat is it den?

i replied, alah..later u see u noe lah..

den she asked me, how to open the box?

i showed her, like this..see? (opens easily)

she said, ohh!! i noe la..was just testing u..haha!

den she saw the chocolates, she asked, u made urself is it?

i was like, huh?! u,since wen i own a chocolate factory?

u tink i noe how to make chocolate huh?haha!

she is so cute when she ask those 'stupid' questions..haha! tats wat i like abt her..hehe..

my fren quietly video me and hani being together..i was like damn nervous cos, ppl were looking at us..

i mean, im wearing a diff uniform.. and talking to a gal, one on one..of cos ppl will look rite?

so tats y i was nervous..

but it went smoothly... :D

time to continue the offensive..

shadow

signing out

@ 9:50 PM

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

U noe..im starting to feel like as if im back in secondary sch..

u noe..wen we have crushes on members of the opposite sex..

but in my case..im a little advanced..

u see, my crush is a fren of mine..

i mean, back in sec sch, i dun dare to even talk to my crushes..

yeah, u noe who are they..

i mean, ive never confessed my feelings to ANY of my crushes..

lets see...actuali i have oni 2 crushes..a chinese and a half chinese gal...

maybe malay gals are just not my cup of tea..

how ironic..

so enough side tracking, back to the main plot,

but since now im in ITE, i decide to be more 'matured'

'matured' as in more daring and more of adult thingy..

so i tried to confess to my crush...

ok, i did tat alr...

but the worse thing is that...

i still have this sec sch feeling..

where ur heart goes beating thrice as fast whenever u see ur crush..

and im facing that crisis now..

each time i see her i wud just..

smile, say hi, and quickly walk away..

i mean, i always bump into her in school..

like everyday...

and im still damn freaking shy..

y? i asked myself..

y i behave like a sec school kid who is in love...

y cant i be more matured?

treat her as a normal fren..

as in talk to her normally..

i mean, i cant talk normally when i see her face to face..

that is so sec sch rite?

the chance is there but im not doing anything..

stupid rite? (haha..i rmb the dnt boys make fun of MR LIM last time)

so saiful..

lets chill and take a few deep breath..

and if the condition still persist,

try a penzamin (if i rmb correctly)

tat will slow down ur heart beat..

chat with her the next time u bump into her..god is giving u the chance,

dun throw it away..

make a conversation..

have confidence in urself..

and rmb tat u musnt judge her without knowing her..

i mean, stereotypically,

ppl tink she goes for the looks..

but i beg to differ..

but my beg to differ alone is not enuf..

i need to have faith in myself..

dun look down at urself..

okay..feel better now..

alrite!! tomorrow! here i come!!!

tinking of having lunch with her tmr...MAYBE CAN..

see if she is willing

shadow

signing out

@ 8:08 PM

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

its been awhile and i got nothing to post abt except school and project work...

oh yeah, newsflash, im not myself this days...

been sick since last week and i cant be myself..

even soccer was badly affected yesterday..

stupid headache and cold..

irritating to the max can..

to make matters worse..

i feel like we are distant from each other...

so wat she misses me?

i just feel distant..i miss this fren of mine too..

but im so damn sick that i cant stay any later..to chat with her..

and yeah..

other guys having the advantage?

yarh..

i just need to recover quick..

i hate being sick...

i even feel like slping during school altho i sleep early the night before..

enough said..

i just want to recover and push all distractions away..

and put my best for the team for the tournament..

shadow

signing out

@ 11:52 PM

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Yesterday , went to Raj house for Deepavali tingy..

ate alot until 5 rounds..

veri the full can...

Niap tried to sabo me but i sabo him back..hur hur.. :D

so went home at 11 plus..

raining..but i have headache..

signing out

@ 10:21 PM

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Firstly and foremost i wud like to apologize for not turning up for soccer.

i had a hectic and frantic friday.

u see, i had to buddy up with an aussie.she is 31. but i have a special edition picture, me and my 18 year old aussie girlfriend! hehe

so we toured around city hall, etc etc. i had a good time but later tat day, i went to my frens hse as we planned to go clubbing at st James near vivo

but it was boring so wasted la the 20 dollar

but luckily my fren drove us there using his father's car and we got home at 4 plus

so tats y i overslept

so how do u find her? heheh...

so saturday, at nite, me and my frens went to ZOUK woohooo!!!!

the music there was awesome and if u are too shy to dance to the beat, den forget abt clubbing

so we stayed till 4 and I drove my frens home using my frens car WITHOUT any licence

i drove around the whole of spore without any license as my frens stay far away from each other.so i became substitute driver when my frens are sleepy

it was damn fun la

A nite of anarchy

it feels good to break the rules once in awhile

till here

shadow

signing out

@ 3:27 PM

Thursday, November 1, 2007

rite..gotta prepare myself for tmr as i'll be touring ard town with my aussies counterparts...i try to get the pics tmr aite..

gotta go

@ 11:22 PM