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Thursday, December 11, 2008
today she came up to me and asked "are u okay?
"yeah" i said
are u sure? she asked.
"actually, no." i answered.
"i need to talk to u" i said.
"what is it?" she asked.
"i dunno if u misunderstood me or something like that, i want u to know that what happened means alot to me, i wasnt toying with u or taking advantage of u" i said.
"but u know my status rite" she replied.
"yeah i know." i said.
i kept quiet.
anything else? she asked.
yeah...i want to know why u were furious with me?
cos im not used to it. she said
then u think im used to it ah? i replied.
i didnt say that. she said.
do u know how painful it was?
do U know how painful it was for me? and how would my bf feel if he knew? she cut in.
yeah i know how it feels okay..im not so heartless. i said.
i just wished it nvr happened u know. cos i dont want to be like this. i told her
but it happened alr she said. we cant change that.
so after that she says, u okay alr? lets just forget abt it. ok? i gotta go.
however the conversation continues when we were alone again.
what do u mean by it means something to u? she asked.
it means alot okay....um.. i was at lost of words.
i wanted to say that its something special between us. i wanted to say i find it sweet, like how it summed up to the kiss. but i couldnt. im afraid i mite use the wrong word. its always good to choose ur words wisely.
well eversince it happened, the memories keep flashing back..u know...
u like me again? she asked.
before i could answer the place was filled with our friends. so the conversation stopped there.
i know i have to answer her question tmr. and i want her to know that it really means alot to me.
but one thing for sure. i'll nvr be her bf like what she told me. i have to think of other ppl's feelings. especially the bf feelings.
so i guess its better that things stay the way it is. i dont want anyone, including myself to be heartbroken again.
