Hmmm...guess it's my turn to write my last post of the year..=)

Ok..Major highlights of the year...

Let's see...


Oh yea..got my result at the first few months of the year..and got myself a pass..so as my frens too..but some juz decided to try again eventhough got into SP! aha..siao gina..and yea not forgetting,i got into poly..

Secondly..talking about O lvl results,i remembered the first few times i actually bonded myself with N and Hz..it was when we 4 (N,fool,zal and me) decided to accompany Hz to Shatec for his application..Seemed so much like a normal day till the day reached afternoon..

Dat of coz leads to another major highlight of the year.."I spotted an angel!!"...aha..in another words..."I found the right one!!"..=)

We went out a few days later..and erm..somemore somemore la..cannot tell..lolz..


Thirdly,i made alot of new frens in my new school..

but..i dun hav to remind myself..coz i always know,old friends are your true ones..


Fourthly,i'm falling out of school..my my..i'm still waiting for someone to spark my life..yet no one's coming..how long do u want me to wait for u? (i dunno who the 'u' too..how i wish i know la) haizz...



My Last Highlight

Got myself the biggest embarrassment ever in my life juz a few days ago and i'm still wishing it never happened..

I mean like...my goodness...do u people hav to embarrass me as far as dat?? I've never ever visited her while she's working u know..and now when i visit her,she would be thinking i actually wanted to meet her coz i wanted free drinks?? How shameful is dat??? I'm so ashamed to talk to her right now..i seriously am..U guys made me look like i was some freaking beggar..I'm so tempted to put vulgarities in this post..but i know i shouldnt..making another mistake is never gonna erase the embarrassment..I mean,gosh...cant u guys make up another joke instead of dat one?

It's juz dat i feel like i've never met her for such a long time..I miss her...alot..

U dunno how suffocating it was when i was in Msia all alone in the inside with the different environment..I wanna meet her again and at least say out something sweet...dat's all i asked for...wat did i get instead?


"This isnt my shop..Mane leh free.."


Is dat sweet to u guys?

The worse thing is dat I keep remembering those words coz i've been dreaming to remember her every words if i ever meet her again after i got back from Msia safely..At least a surprising hi? or mayb i miss you? anything like dat? Or are u guys too dumb to think about such things?


Mayb u guys should have spared some thoughts for me..
Is dat too hard?

Haz

fuck fuck fuck...

im so fucking pissed off and really in a bad mood..what a way to end the year huh?

so much for spending the last moments happily...

wait..y m i so hyped up abt the end of year?

its just the same like any other day..

so y the big fuss?

i tink its just me...i was so hyped up wen i shud just be normal...

see wat happens when u get hyped up and got dissapointed?

u feel real fucked up..

another problem is that i just feel so powerless to help my fren..

she's been in bad mood like 2 weeks like tat..

and i really3 want to bring up her mood..

but i just dunno how..and its being a big deal for me..

cause she dun deserve to feel sad for sum1 tat doesn't care for her..

that guy is just an heartless bastard..

Arrgh!!

i duno y im feeling fucked up...i just hate my life now...

why im being affected by these emotions?

ok ok..lets plan..

first, u need to bring up her mood...but how? each time i wan to meet her she is in bad mood..if not her bad mood then she wake up late..if not wake up late then its bcos her mum dun let..

why is it so fucking hard?

and why im crazy abt gerls? why should i be? its just plain stupid..

Arrgh...thanks to my hormones im feeling like this..the feeling of wanting the opposite sex..and the anger from the disappointment..

the only way to bring up her mood is to meet her...and we cant even acheive that....

NEVER MIND..there is always tomorrow...and we have been saying that since what? before the holiday?

arrhg..even during skool..ah fuck...fuck everything la...

hard to meet her...fuck..

should i still remain patient and wait for that day?

maybe i should and stop being vulgar...

lets be positive ok?

there is like more than enough time for everything

but i wana cheer her up

looks like i gotta wait for the day to come..

and yarh...today is just like any other day..

i tink tats all now..

ok...lets make an effort to post the last post of 2007...

yesterday was spent at Haz's crib...played guitar...practiced canon in d instead...haha..and got some pointers too...

alrity then..now for the last 2007 post edition...

Who do u tink is the best soccer player this season?

Christiano Ronaldo(actually wanted to put Nani but his best moment was the long range goal against Middlesbrough)

what is the most hated event this year?

ans: the price hike in everything..GST, Service tax..Bus..and recently taxi..

what is ur fave song this year?

ans: lonely september, plain white t's

how many new ppl u meet outside ?

1

i dunno what else to put...

but lemme summarise my 2007 year...

year started watiing for results..

went to clementi ite..

made new frens...

had lots of fun..

hang out wif RKO,Niap HZ most of the times..

soccer skills improved tremendously..

injured now..

christmas wif the guys..

stupid bet was imposed by N..

no intention of winning it..

hmm.wat else?

oh yarh..giving chocolate to hani..haha...

hmm...i tink tat sums it...

so now i hope tat i cud spend the last day today wif sum1 whom i deem very special..it cud be any1...the guys..ite frens...any1...or rather spend it alone..haha

till here

shadow

signing out

Juz got back from malaysia..

and gosh..I miss seeing everyone here...

Mostly,i miss the ones dat has always been close to me..

I cant wait to meet them..

Hope i could meet them before it's too late or anything..aha..

ok,dat's not funny..



Talk about the trip to Malaysia..as usual,i went there by myself..i told ibu dat i'm going Malaysia right before i step out of the house and she was like surprised ah..then she asked,how long am i gonna stay there..i answered,one week..aha..she was of coz,shocked..one week in malaysia and i only informed her a few minutes before i leave the house..wow..wat a son..lolz..but after dat,i really feel like i've done ibu wrong ah..should hav informed her sooner..aha..haizzz..anyway,this time i didnt bring along my guitar or lappie..juz too lazy to carry..and it's quite scary bringing bulky things after u pass the Msian checkpoint coz there's alot of dark alleys..it was night time..


Met ayie at City Square and went straight to his house..actually,no ah..didnt went straight..coz after getting down the bus,we laze around with Syafiq(ayie's lepak fren) and then straight home..ayie was kinda sleepy so he accidentally fall asleep..looks okay to me ah at first..but in the next hour,there were like 10 mosquitoes flying around..gosh..i cant sleep..i kept getting bitten by them..i was cursing ayie so badly..coz he didnt burn the mosquito coil for the night..but he was so much sound asleep..gosh..dat's the only thing i always remember,my every first night there is always the worse..the same thing happened to me in the previous trip..=(


Cut long2 story short..i wasnt expecting myself to be staying there for a week..coz my holidays are only for 2 weeks..but wat the hell..we gotta train and perform...so yea..we really trained and trained for like 4 days or so...Overall,i hav to say the training was so much more fun than the performance..coz we got ourselves a humiliating stage at the majlis perkahwinan..i'll post the pic at the end of the entry..


The most irritating issue was...We were barred from using any distortion..dammit..


There was a song where ayie put some distortion in,and an auntie shouted at the end of the song.."main lagu 60an!"...WOW..wat a freaking loser..We have been playing 60an eversince the start and we only played one rock song..why the hell the auntie hav to be so freaking irritating sia?? And when we were playing d song,teenage girls started running out of the house and smiled at us..we were like so happy ah..i mean why not,right? We could entertain people with the song we ourselves hav interest in playing..Even the bride and the groom has left the pelamin already..Wat a damn loser..lolz..


Eventually we got fed up with the schedule of our songs too coz there's another performer,a solo performer on the day..so it's like after we performed 2 songs,it would then be his turn..but sometimes he juz took advantage of us like instead of playing 2 songs,he did 3..and the thing dat's bugging me the most was dat each of his song is like 10mins long..and ours is only 2-3 mins..gosh..Dat day was juz a disaster..dat's why we kept telling each other,the trainings were so much better..coz we had fun..we played alot of headbaning songs..the ones we like..for example..I'm Not Okay,I.C.U,Nurhafidah and many more..


After returning all the instruments back to Hibri's house (Hibri = our drummer cum guitarist cum basis cum keyboardist cum violinist ) me and ayie help him set up back his jamming room instead of juz leaving the stuff on the floor..dunno why ah,i was juz tempted to help him with the instruments settings..aha..yea..After that,we had dinner in his house with the berkat dat was given followed by his family sending us home..


While in the car,it was quite dark since we were sitting at the back seats..i saw Hibri's hand infront of me with something in it..i thought he was making a joke or maybe he got nothing to do..But only to realise he was actually trying to give me a RM 100 note..So i asked ah.."Wat's the money for? U think funny ah?",looking very confused..Then he answered.."It's for the performance we did this morning.." Then his father said out loud from the driver's seat "Thanks for everything..Without you guys,we dun think it would be a success"..lolz....a RM 100 juz for playing some shitty songs?? 8 songs to be exact...AHA! of coz i was happy..i was jumping for joy..

Anyway,moving on...i was thinking dat day would be the last day we'll be meeting Hibri..but nope..since each of us got RM 100 from d performance,we decided to make a demo tape out of it.. 1In Singapore,recording one song could cause us $50..which we of coz hesitate whether we should go for it or not..but in Msia,1 HOUR OF RECORDING = RM30..which is equivalent to a jamming of 1 hour in Singapore..aha..can u guys imagine dat??


We could play so many songs in 1 hour..If we were to record those 3 songs in Singapore,it could cause us $150..which also means RM300..so instead of RM 30 dat we paid for..we have to pay 10x more..aha man..u guys juz dunno how we lucky bastards felt..


Home sweet home the next day..=) But before i reached the Malaysian checkpoint,ayie brought me to a music shop..i was wondering why he brought me there..coz i never had any desire of buying original albums..so as him..Suddenly,he took out our demo tape from his bag and gave it to the shopkeeper..Gosh..he actually applied our band for a gig..After their boss listened to all our 3 songs,at that very minute,he said he is gonna put us in a gig/concert called Konsert Di Selatan dat's coming soon..and he said it's gonna be indoor and there's gonna be around 400-900 audience..OK..This is the moment where i thought the world fast forward itself itself for awhile..My goodness...dat damn cousin of mine didnt even approach me about applying for a gig..not mentioning a BIG one too..gosh..of coz i was shocked ah..if he were to tell me at least 15 minutes earlier or something about passing the demo tape to the shop,at least i would be ready ah..dammit..if it's an outdoor,like the one near esplanade..wat people call it..powerhouse? ya..ok la..dat would be ok..but an indoor concert? my goodness..dat's gonna be a disaster..My bandmates are juz 15 years old..aha..damn jokerzzz..


So yep..i gotta make another trip to Msia again this March..for the performance..still cant believe it's real ah..i mean like..siao rite..400-900 audience..and i'm scared at the same time too..Wat if anything cock up? haizzz...mcm mane ni...



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Blank Memories~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Find me =P

How sucky is d stage???? LOLZ!! Got tikar somemore..aha..brrr

I always find myself not sleeping at night..
Coz i miss alot of people...especially her...and not forgetting...my mum..
I really2 wanna hug my mum when i reach home..
but i guess i juz didnt hav the luck..my mum was half asleep and laying flat on the bed when i return..haizz...nvm..
Anyway,wat i cant stand the most is dat..i kept dreaming of her..
To tell u d truth,i dreamt about her for like 4 times in dat very week..so it's like,out of the 7 days,i dreamt of her for like 4 days..gosh..how bad is dat..

I'm still thinking...should i call her..at least to say hi? and tell her i'm back?
Or mayb she doesnt even care in the first place? nvm...guess i'll juz stay quiet..

P.S. You can never clap with one hand

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yesterday chrissmtas...

went out despite nursing an injury..

go town area..walk2...

*yawns*

hehe..

oh ya..chicken zal...ask my bro go play soccer wif u guys rite? assclown...haha!

well..i dun care since i predict tat u guys will miss my presence on the field..hur hur.. ^_^

boxing day was a bore...

f.y.i boxing day is the day after christmas..

i soo want to shop for clothes...

but no money

*sad*...

injury getting well...but i cant play yet...doubtful...hehe..

shadow

signing out

Ouch!!!

soccer yesterday put me into injury..

the wound is oozing some thingy..it still hasn't dry up..

hmm..maybe it would take a week or two for it to start recovery...

so sad..i cant go out during christmas...

have to stay in bed...

not ur fault hz..wasnt intentional...

so my on form run has come to a stop...

was enjoying my latest run of on-form performance..

scoring goals...slick passing...bla bla...

but since im down with injury...

hope i can play like before

shadow

sigining out

went out to class outing yesterday..

left house at 1015

met lily at je...

the two of us arrived at harbourfront first..

later the rest arrived..

took monorail to sentosa..

there is a new station called' future development station'

haha..sounds cool..very advance name like that..

reach beach station..

went to palawan

stayed at the beach and had a feast all to myself as the others went swimming..

went around with 3 best girl frens n took pictures wif them..will upload wen i receive the pics..

then started to rain..hurhur..expected..tats y i didnt bring any swimming gear..

so me and the girls went to explore sentosa by foot..

ppl thought im lily's guy...like WHAT THE HELL?!

juz bcos i share umbrella wif her..lols..

see animal show..the birds are smart..

after that..went to walk2 ard n take pics..merlion..siloso beach..

oh ya we go the 3D thingy..ok2 lah..

hang around until nite..

had dinner at vivo BK

had fun wif the gals..

altho my best guy frens cant turn up..

haha..but nice..got hugs from them..hehe :D

had lots of laughters..

one of them is lily,

we was looking at a brochure map...den she say 'im looking for the we are here logo''

hahaha!! laughed like hell...since wen the brochure map got 'u are here' logo? hahaha!!

she tink GPS huh? haha! crazy gal..

shadow

signing out

ok frankly, im sick of seeing the previous post over n over again...

so..better put a new post..

holiday's in.

hmm..how abt i list my to do list for the holidays..

but first lets brainstorm the calender..

lets see,

2 weeks to the new year...christmas is nearing( noting to do with me)

so..i plan to make my first week as effective as possible.

monday-free,

tuesday-class gathering

wed-not free

thur-not free

fri-not free

sat n sun-not free

hmm...so first week..got 1 day free only...wat shud i do?

i noe!!hehe :D

so..what shud i do on monday?

watch movie?
walk around westside?
eat?

im juz clueless of where to go on mon..

cant wait to get work..hope my fren can help me..

so that i wun rot at home..

and maybe help me to 4get her..

i juz cant be bothered to rush abt it..

n oh yarh..better find me a colourful envelope...type a letter..to wish sum1 for the end of year..

2007 is coming to an end..wow..

wonder how 2008 will be?

only time will tell

shadow

siging out..

OMG!!!

wanted to post abt raj bdae on sundae....but end up on monday..

ok...so raj bdae was ok

lots of food

n yarh

tats all abt it :D

so...im gona miss tat person who has been in the same skool tis year..

cuz she is graduating soon,,,her exams are tis week...

gona miss the times we bumped to each other...

reli2 treasure it..

i duno...feel kinda sad...

i nvr regret smiling at her tat day....23 may...

it started our frenship....

reli treasures our frenship...

too bad i had a crush on her...

wish i didnt....

but nah...heck care lah....

if only she can choose....it'll be me...

shadow

signing out