This ship is taking me far away...

2010-03-07T22:05:00.002+08:00

last nite was my first nite shift...it was really happening...

first case: skydiving. an old man..broken legs and mouth...i had to carry the body to the hearse..

and after that had 3 cases of fiteing in st james...like wth ...when we go thr got ntg..when im on duty....so much fiting....haha...

tats all.

2010-03-03T20:15:00.002+08:00

its been 3 months late since the new year...

here's the breakdown, passed put from HTA on 22 Feb, did alot of crazy things b4 that, went to other bunk and hang out till late....nvr go pt and morning parade..haha.

24 feb. went to Delta div.

stayed in locker room for a week. was boring but at least we get to slp. hee

2 march, finally got assigned to NPC. Bukit Merah West. near tiong bahru mrt. but at least its a new environment.

so rite now...getting the new guy atmosphere. hope to blend in soon.

2009-12-31T13:27:00.003+08:00

2009. ive decided to make records of my life here.

and i think ive grown really matured over the years.
yeah sure im still joking around and stuff...but, 2009 really is an impact since the last 2 years.
Here is what happened in 2009:

ended attachment and graduated from ite.
tried to apply poly but failed.
enlisted to NS instead.
now in SPF. NPCO. cool.
while doing time in NS, hani got injured for a month.
when she came back, she said something of being mine.
but things happened and she chose someone else. heartbroken 1 time.
so during fasting month, i get to know this girl. Farhanah. a sweet small girl.
we got close and there was chemistry. we dated for 3 weeks before we officialised on 23 october.
she means alot to me. only i noe y.
on 5 dec, something happened, her dad told her that an agreement has been made abt her engagement. heartbroken 2 times.
took me 3 weeks to really let go of her. but now, i still love her, but like i said, ive grown and decided to move on so as not to get hurt.
hani broke up wif fat fuck and feels sorry for what she did to me 3 months ago. tried to make up for all the pain i suffered.
this time its payback time. im no longer head over heels at her. she is still trying to fall in love with me. aku da tak heran ah. and the fling with lily is happening again..we french kissed at hort park on 14 dec. her relationship is in the rocks. again, she got angry but this time, she likes my kisses. girls girls...tsk tsk..so she's like accompanying me since my break up.

so u see, 2009 is really a shit year for me. i noe i was so optimistic and naive for the last 2 years, but this time i decided to think abt myself.

still in contact with hani. but im planning to stay at this way.
next year i'll be graduating from the academy, so i reckon more stories to come.
im aiming for a class 2b next year.
i want and WILL stay single until i am stable. this heartbreak is too much. girls are such a pain in the ass. and i dun want any serious relationship with them until im stable.
im not gonna let myself fall for any girls this time. sure i feel the misses.. but i have to remind myself how painful a heartbreak is. its better to be lonely than heartbroken.

there, my resolution for my life. expecting 2010 to be another roller coaster..but ive decided to be abit darker. dun expect me to smile.

2009-11-22T23:42:00.008+08:00

Cant blame anyone for not remembering it..
i wish i was born a day later..
a second chance to get just one wish from anyone..i dun care who..just make me smile for a day....

2009-08-23T12:39:00.002+08:00

been 3 weeks and alot of tings have happened.

how wud u feel if u hear good news and in less than a week, bad news comes up?

i feel devastated and confused.

i was that close to having her. now some guy is tackling her and bcos he made an impact, she practically duno wat to say abt wat she told me.

she said she wanted me, but after the guy came to the picture, she took back wat she said.

im like, wtf and things went awry.

so basically, things are really uncertain now. and the feeling of uncertainty is not happy.

cause u duno whats gonna happen in the near future.

i juz dun understand why god make it so complicated. when it was just abt to get smooth sailing.

2009-08-01T18:16:00.002+08:00

last week was fun cause we had revolver training and guess what? i got marksmanship..49 out of 50 rounds..well i was letting my anger out during the shooting..maybe tats why i become so good suddenly...

past week things have been pretty tough and i even thought of using the revolver training to shoot myself...but upon hearing the sound of the revolver after every shot, i realised tat im not that desperate to end my life yet.

so ytd i met hani one last time b4 we take a break from each other. it was fun bt i know the real story so no matter how fun it was or how well we get along with each other, deep inside the story is diff. tats why its best we take a break for the time being.

2009-07-19T16:18:00.001+08:00

yesterday i had my first shisha! a time to rmb...at al majlis

NS been pretty mixed with emotions...fun sad alll those stuffs u noe..

well life's been pretty much the same...except for the fact that i spend five days at my new home...im pretty much getting used to it...but it just sucks because the instructors are on a lookout to spot our mistakes so we really cant do watever we like..

so yeah...gotta train myself for ippt tis week...its gonna be busy and the only time i look forward to is light's out...

til here.

2009-06-07T16:53:00.001+08:00

had a nite out at town last nite and just woke up 4 hrs ago...packed my stuffs for tues

well this is it huh. lets just get it over with.

3 months of camping..

let this post be a point for me to look back at.

2009-05-28T19:29:00.002+08:00

is it true? that norhafirah has passed away in an accident?

i feel freaky...cuz i saw her for the first time since we left sec sch last wednesday on the 20th may at bugis topman outlet...i said hi to her..and now i find out that she passed away...i feel freaky....

was the day that i saw her a sign?

2009-05-14T22:45:00.002+08:00

today was our graduation ceremony, i had a memorable reunion with my classmates who are dressed in stylish outfits.

we had lunch at pizza hut and it was really a happy one,

god, two years have passed just like tat, tinking abt it just gives u tat nostalgic chilling feeling going down ur spine.

2009-04-23T13:19:00.002+08:00

while waitting for NS, other than watching anime non stop, ive also been planning what my next step in studies would be like. and ive come to the conclusion that not everyone can get in to poly. unlike sec or pri sch where they have place for everyone, poly are for those who are selected. based on vacancies. so tats why not everyone can go to poly.

well if i cant get to poly, i planned that maybe i should go to MDIS, however its not a govt recognised diploma. but its only a 10 month duration course. see the time difference?

and if i get that dip, i plan to get a degree from MDIS, a 9 month course. well, that is if i want to choose a hospitality and tourism path.

on the other hand, i have some interest in joining the police force, well maybe because i want to be an inspector and solve cases. but, that would require government approved dip and degree.

furthermore, i plan to get married ard 26.. i dont want to be an old father, and i want to have an enjoyable sex life. tats y i want to get married fast. lol

but ive decided to wait and see how my NS is, if its not bad, maybe i'll join the police force.

2009-04-08T10:22:00.002+08:00

i received my enlistment letter yesterday and guess what? im directed to the police! im like wah! haha i duno why i feel so happy but yeah.

2009-04-03T16:02:00.002+08:00

just to let u know i didnt get into poly. i have gpa of 3.2 yet still didnt get into poly.

2009-03-30T13:47:00.009+08:00

lily looks cute here.

tiramisu cake.

Happy Birthday Lily!

yesterday me and my clique celebrated lily's bdae at MS. we watched 12 rounds and had dinner and most importantly, we had her bdae cake and gave her a present which made her look like she just had organism. haha! tats how happy she was ytd.

after that i accompanied her all the way to boon lay because someone was eyeing her throughout the journey back home.

vid of lily's reaction

2009-03-22T00:49:00.001+08:00

played soccer ytd and scored 2 goals. making it 3 this year. cant wait to score more as the days goes by.

after ending my attachment, im a free man. i feel like finding a part time job, but the question is where? well my wats on my mind is starbucks. which starbucks? i do not know.

well im free now. april im starting sch probably. or if i get poly i mite reserve my spot and go ns first. cos tat way after ns i can find a job after graduating.

2009-03-04T17:02:00.003+08:00

so this is my first ever 2009 post. im surprised to find out that i still rmb the email and password of this blog.

had dinner with niap, zal and raj ytd. they wanted to celebrate my bdae so bad, thats why i agreed to meet them. hahaha.

i told them that i'll be driving, didnt expect raj to make full use of it.

firstly, he wants me to get him to woodlands to get some shots of him and a female. okay before that, he was late! hahaha. and bcos of that i didnt get to eat pastamania. thanks raj! lol.

after that, we wandered around aimlessly and in the end, we ended up at bukit timah. so we had our dinner there. i love the chicken kebab, looks and taste like KFC's twister.

after the heartwarming meal, we planned where to go next. we planned to go geylang. due to Raj's demand.

so we went there to have some durian. and we even flirted with the durians! raj's first reaction was to ensure that the car window was closed but i just opened it back anyways so as to frighten him.

actually we went to the red light district, and raj was annoying as normal. he was scared when we drove past the whores, but was asking me to drive another round whenever we exited the area.

after that, we went to mount faber. its a little interesting as its the first time i went up that so called mountain despite me travelling past that hill almost everyday. it has a nice view really.

then we went to labrador, and zal's so called tombstone was nowhere to be found. instead his 2 dollar note was stolen by the vending machine but raj managed to choke it out.

after that i decided to bring them to seletar. now seletar is the best place to race as its quiet and the roads are nice to drive on. however, my car wasnt meant for racing so i didnt pushed the vehicle to its limits.

after that i send raj to NUH and send everyone back home. reached home at 445. now is 12 hours later.

i had a great time, its been long since i hanged out with them. and we still have fun just like before.

2008-12-31T21:09:00.004+08:00

2008 has come and go.

in 2007 i wondered how 2008 would be.

well, i think the posts i put for 2008 is enough to tell u how 2008 has been.

it has been a hectic year, i mean lots of things that ive nvr expect to happen has happened.

and compared to last year, im no longer stressed over hani. yes i still have feelings for her. and this year i met her a few times and thats really an improvement compared to last year

well, ive grown this year, i havent yet achieve the goal of winning her heart, but there is some progress and that is a change.

and her parents met me alr. which is something unexpected.

and i also got a driving licence and my own internet.

so im happy that 2008 is a year of improvement for me.

i made new frens this year, lya and emilia. lya is my bestfren and our relationship is uncertain. we can be together but conditions dont allow it.

2009? gonna be something that will be totally diff.

my resolutions?

finish my attachment

move to my next stage of life. studies or NS

save 1000 in my bank.

thats all in the moment.

but i reckon 2009 will be more exciting. lets hope it will be.

bye 2008. its been a really up and down journey. hello 2009, lets get the ball rolling

2008-12-22T23:23:00.002+08:00

seriously, i wonder why god wants me to live a bit longer?

i would have either died or get seriously injured last thurs nite.

it was ard 3 am n i was driving home after chilling with my best bro.

i was slpy and i didnt realise that i fell aslp.

and the next thing i hear in my slp was a repeated duh-duh-duh...it meant the car has went to the hazard lines of the road. it meant i was a split second close to hitting the wall. i was travelling at 70 km/hr.

the moment i heard the noise, i woke up and my first reaction was to steer away from the wall. i was traumatised.

looking back, i dunno why god does not want me dead yet, i mean im tat close to getting physically hurt.

cos i wish im dead. its too painful too carry on my life. im so puzzled in my mind rite now.

2008-12-11T00:00:00.002+08:00

today she came up to me and asked "are u okay?

"yeah" i said

are u sure? she asked.

"actually, no." i answered.

"i need to talk to u" i said.

"what is it?" she asked.

"i dunno if u misunderstood me or something like that, i want u to know that what happened means alot to me, i wasnt toying with u or taking advantage of u" i said.

"but u know my status rite" she replied.

"yeah i know." i said.

i kept quiet.

anything else? she asked.

yeah...i want to know why u were furious with me?

cos im not used to it. she said

then u think im used to it ah? i replied.

i didnt say that. she said.

do u know how painful it was?

do U know how painful it was for me? and how would my bf feel if he knew? she cut in.

yeah i know how it feels okay..im not so heartless. i said.

i just wished it nvr happened u know. cos i dont want to be like this. i told her

but it happened alr she said. we cant change that.

so after that she says, u okay alr? lets just forget abt it. ok? i gotta go.

however the conversation continues when we were alone again.

what do u mean by it means something to u? she asked.

it means alot okay....um.. i was at lost of words.

i wanted to say that its something special between us. i wanted to say i find it sweet, like how it summed up to the kiss. but i couldnt. im afraid i mite use the wrong word. its always good to choose ur words wisely.

well eversince it happened, the memories keep flashing back..u know...

u like me again? she asked.

before i could answer the place was filled with our friends. so the conversation stopped there.

i know i have to answer her question tmr. and i want her to know that it really means alot to me.

but one thing for sure. i'll nvr be her bf like what she told me. i have to think of other ppl's feelings. especially the bf feelings.

so i guess its better that things stay the way it is. i dont want anyone, including myself to be heartbroken again.

2008-12-08T22:38:00.002+08:00

like finally we're back on talking terms.

but i know it wont be like before.

she wont be hanging around me like before.

she wont be telling me her problems like before.

well eversince the incident, i fell in love with her.

now here is the problem. she is attached, a 2 year plus old relationship.

i know im the third party over here. and i really know the pain of losing a gf to someone else.

so i keep telling myself that i shouldnt love her. i mean she has a bf alr so why make things even more complicated?

and furthermore, im still curious. what was that happened all about?

does it mean anything to her? or she thinks that im just having fun?

well what happened meant alot for me, i fell in love with her over the memories that keeps flashing back every now and then.

i mean to me its really something sweet. the hugs and all. it was just too unexpected.

and the way she responds while we were abt to kiss, oh how bittersweet it is.

i know i shouldnt do that at the first place, but she didnt push me away.

well right now she dont know what i feel.

should i tell her?

2008-12-05T12:11:00.002+08:00

i keep getting into one deep shit after another.

i wished i didnt kissed her,

i just lost a good fren.

how am i going to go on working when she treats me like as if im invisible?

it just drives me crazy,

i tried to talk with her but she just keeps avoiding me.

i mean i didnt force her when we were kissing. in fact, she responded to me. she even kissed me back. she didnt say no or anything.

i just dunno why she's treating me like this.

its confusing...one moment we were all lovey-dovey. and the next moment she treat me like im some kind of freak.

i cant sleep. neither can i live properly this way.

ive never cried so much for a girl friend before. i mean our frenship means so much more than anything i have in this world.

what should i do?

2008-12-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

oh saiful, why are u always involved with girls?

nak kate handsome tak. nak kate flirt pun tak.

once again, im in a fling.

we were working together, we've been frens for a year and a half.

she has a bf

i used to like her

didnt know it wud happen in our attachment.

we were alone in the villa, a big bungalow like room.

we finished our job.

she started to ask me if i had any scandals.

she asked me how it would it be if we were a couple.

she said i would make a gd bf

she wanted my massage.

and then there was silence. we sat quietly.

she asked what was on my mind, i said 'nothing'

i wasnt sure if i should do something, even if i wanted, i couldnt. cos she's a best fren of mine.

she asked again, ure thinking of something, out with it. i said nothing again.

it went on for abt 15 mins. and then she said i tink we should go.

and so we went to turn off the lights room by room.

at the last room, she told me not to go first, cos she's afraid of the dark.

okay i said.

after that she said that she wanted to hug me.

so i okayed again and we hugged in the dark.

i need to stop flirting she said

oh so u mean ure flirting now? i replied

she said this is the last time im hugging u

why? i asked

cos my bf will kill me

she said thank u for being such a nice fren.

i kept quiet.

she said u can nvr be my bf.

i kept quiet.

we looked at each other in the dark, hands on waist.

i smiled and she said i can see ur teeth.

i dunno what made me do it but i went closer to her. and so did she.

we kissed.

i pulled away after some time.

i just cant believe wat happened.

we hugged again

and i asked, can i kiss u again?

No she replied firmly.

okay i said

so she said we better get going. this never happened.

yeah i agreed.

2008-11-28T20:37:00.002+08:00

today for the first time in my life i watched a movie all alone. and yes i do get paranoid thinking what ppl would say when they saw me coming all alone in the theater.

well i had no choice okay. i had a free movie pass and it expires end of this month, so not wanting it to go to waste, i decided to go and use it.

i watched the show quarantine, its the same as the spanish movie 'rec' only tat this one is in english.

the show had all the content for a suspense movie, however its expected tat the show is abt an experiment gone wrong and has no ending.

after that i went to holland V to do some stuffs. and it was my first time and im really surprised with what i see in there. cool.

2008-11-22T19:11:00.002+08:00

happy birthday haz! finally ure 19.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,

As we walked on by.

She could see from my face that I was,Fucking high,

And I don't think that I'll see her again,

But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw your face in a

crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,When she thought up that I should

be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.

thats exactly what i feel when i saw this super beautiful tudung malay girl. with her black kebaya, her body shape fits perfectly. which was something ive never seen before. the moment i alighted from the bus she was the first person i see and i swear i was stunned cos its the first time i see a superb beautiful girl. cos she's not the typical pretty girl i swear on that honest.

btw. i finally did it!

2008-11-16T23:40:00.003+08:00

this coming week is like the most important week in my life, work was getting boring cos i got nothing to do but were pushed around to do silly stuffs to make me look busy. and my condition getting worse, i dont dare to meet ppl until it gets better.

not only it hurts, its really demoralising, especially if ppl talks abt is cos im rather senstive regarding the issue.

and playing red aler 3 is really fun but playing against a hard computer is difficult. guess gaming isnt as easy as it was like 10 years ago.

and before i forget, how can they promote the zoo after that guy was killed by tigers? i find it amusing, if u get my idea.

and i love chinese drama soo much, my latest fave, is the current 9 o'clock show. but there are some channel 8 classics which i like too. cos during work i always turn on the tv and channel surf while working. and if im lucky i get to watch the champions league highlights. heheh.

i intend to gain some fats. is eating 6 sausages a day enough? plus 2 glasses choc milk and 2 tomatoes.

and i miss laughing my ass out. havent had a good laugh for weeks now. im so deprived.

2008-11-06T20:58:00.002+08:00

Being in the hospitality industry is really very challenging.

why? cos my foreign frens, mynamar, thai etc. they always ask me to go for some beer sometimes after work.

and im sumone who is very reluctant to reject an offer.

but i have to say no and tell them i dont drink.

i know drinking is a social thingy, cos i know there is no other way i can spend time with my colleagues. maybe i should follow them the next time they want to unwind. but uh, coke please.

LOL! the bartender must like surely laugh his ass out deep in his heart.

Anyway, lets reflect on whats happening around the world

IS IT gonna be the year of the black this year?

i mean, we can see blacks being the figureheads in the known world.

we see hamilton as the first black F1 champion, and the recently crowned president Obama, also the first black president.

from here, we can see that colors really isnt a deciding factor, lets not discriminate them. they're just like us. there's no disadvantage or whatever but they're really going for gold and lead the world.

enough of reflections, relax ok? why so serious?

2008-11-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

fourth week of attachment.

i attended my first meeting with the best ppl in the housekeeping dept.

and i was told that i would be doing supervisory work, which is inspecting the rooms after it was cleaned, before it is released for sale.

its like so cool la if i really get to do that, haha.

this week was kinda great, getting used to the job and it sucks when it rains cos that means i have more work to do.

my eyes cant open any longer. gtg.

2008-10-26T02:20:00.001+08:00

the resort faced full occupancy on saturday, which means the hsekeeping dept will be busy for the next 2 days as they have to make a fast turnover of rooms available. well at least im off on sunday and just have to get thru the days...

2008-10-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

2nd week of attachment:

did the villas, im like, man, i can do this without learning at sch...im looking to do wat i learnt in sch man. had only 3 days of doing rooms...and after that i was attached to the villa area which isnt occupied all the time, more like vacant.. but i have to upkeep the cleanliness of the villa so that it wont get dusty..

2008-10-15T07:01:00.005+08:00

attachment life.

so what u see above is what i see everyday, except for photos of bikini babes which i cant take cos i'll look like a psycho if i do if someone catches me in the act.

so yeah. tiring but fun :D

F1 fever

2008-09-28T12:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday i went to catch the f1 fever in the suntec area to hear the roar of the f1 engine, and man, i was like so over the moon. the feeling was better than sex, and i felt like orgasm la can?

that was how happy i was when i heard the sound of the f1 cars. and it was really a once in a lifetime experience, i mean its not always that spore have cars racing in town and the sound of the engines is really a must hear. its defeaning, but its sooo cool!

recommend u guys with the passion for racing to go to suntec today to hear the cars zoom around town. its a waste if u guys dont get this opportunity.

the experience is really invaluable.

2008-09-26T00:47:00.003+08:00

so, abt my interview the other day...

went there with my ride, was ok..and ya i noe i suck at taking pics..but hey, look at those retro chairs! and plus the hotel is themed in the 60's and 70's era... cool or what?

2008-09-24T00:06:00.002+08:00

yesterday i just had my NS medical check up and it was really a pain

lets see, had my needle into my arm for my blood, had to urine on some litmus paper thingy,
had my eyesight checked and my ears too. and then there was a dental check up, and not forgetting the X-ray.

soon i had to show a doctor my penis and had my body on some kind of heartbeat thingy. and last but not least, the IQ test, which lasts abt 2 hours.

well at least i got my medical done. hotel interview later today at 1030 am at hotel re! new hotel.

2008-09-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

had a great time with my frens as we break fast together, i mean we hadnt met for 2 week? since sch ends and we all know we might not be able to hang out often especially when our attachment starts.

so we went to break fast at geylang, me prem and the girls, we went to eat at Arnold's, a chicken eatery...i had nvr heard of it until lily suggested that we breakfast there.

so Arnold was located at city plaza in geylang, u noe, the place with the second First Lady outlet.
we went to book a table for 6, and were told to come back ard 730..

so we went to walk ard geylang while waiting for 730 to arrive...we went to buy some finger food as we need to eat the moment its buke time...

so at 730 we went in, i shared a whole chicken set with siti, which cost abt 970, we shared a potato plattter which consists of varieties of potatoes finger food such as fries, criss croos fries, and some fried potatoes. plus, i had ice moccha to go with and ice kachang for desert.

so me being me, my frens couldnt finish their chickens so i had to do my thing and finish up their food, i mean i hate to see food going to waste.

well i consider it cheap based on quantity and what i ordered, we each just have to fork out 10.50 for the bill.

after that we walked ard geylang and went home after that

2008-09-15T18:33:00.002+08:00

Reality means looks does matter.

ive read an article over at msnbc and seems like no matter what u do, good looking ppl have the edge over us average joes.

so some of u are lucky and some of us are not.

cruel world huh

2008-09-14T00:31:00.001+08:00

urgh...failed to meet hasan again....argh...fell asleep...anyway lemme check my whether ive been moving closer to my goals for the holidays.

1. book driving test date

2. attend driving lessons (30 lessons cost $59 each)

3. save up for the lessons

4. prepare for raye.

so thats what i need to do this september and guess what? 2 weeks have alr past! its like so little time lah!

and i want to have hair like justin!

2008-09-06T00:49:00.005+08:00

having my first driving practical lesson later today..like finally..took sometime to save up the cash for the lessons as they are damn costly...

fret not...i will ensure that i will put all my effort on these practical lessons so that i

will make a smooth progress and obtain a driving licence somewhere near november!

anyway..i have discovered the best position in a hotel to fulfill and suits my talents to develop my skills..

no its not a backside seller...

but its called the concierge..

thats con-ci-arge for those that had their tongue twisted trying to pronounce the word..haha..joking la..

well the job scope of the concierge sounds easy : fulfill guests requests which are legal, humanly and sensible..

well sounds easy but concierge is like a walking dictionary, a mister know-it-all for the guests who are in doubt.

so i plan to know singapore inside out like the back of my hand...i need to know the best makan places, the best shops, etc....

so i finally found a job which fits my passion and ambition in the hotel sector..i had no idea what post to aim for in the hotel industry but i finally found it and im gonna work for it!

i miss u guys, niap esp. lol

2008-09-03T22:38:00.002+08:00

last 2 days left in sch before the term ends...but for me and my classmates, its the last time we're gonna step into clementi ite...since we will be going for industrial attachment sometime around mid october.

so me and a fren of mine plan to extend our list of contacts (girls) before we leave sch. i mean we have our target but we were just too pussies to make the move...however we plan to drop our egos and make that move...haha

problem is, we dunno if we will be able to see our target as their schedule is not the same. so we will see our luck la hor..

2008-08-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

well i dont know abt u guys, but there is news of two moons that will appear this wednesday morning, 27 aug ard 1215...

scientist says the 2nd moon is planet mars as it gets closer to the earth and shines brightly and it is a once in a lifetime sight...

however, religious wise, the Quran if im not wrong, mentioned that the sight of two moons is a sign of armageddon. so my brothers, please stop getting urself delusioned by the world as the world is a temporary place..

my fren told me of this a week ago and i was trying hard to find out if its true...until my other fren told me today abt the 2nd moon appearance..my hair was standing when i found out that it is going to happen....but this wednesday is going to be scary for me....

so guys be prepared...

*some text are meant for muslims believers....

Cultural night 2008

2008-08-22T01:43:00.005+08:00

me and my gay brothers

couples and one unhappy indian boy

the guys of HK

guys if HK again

well..beautiful ppl

prom nite was great ytd... had good food and had a great time...telling jokes...it just gets better..but gonna miss everyone..with 2 weeks left....how fast time flies...

always have a camera for events...they make a great tool for reminiscing...

2008-08-19T23:48:00.002+08:00

today's project presentation was great.

my classmates all said i looked good in the blazer..haha..presentation went smoothly though before that there were some glithces which kinda turned off my mood. by i somehow forgot abt it in order to make myself feel better..wish i have photos to put but unfortunately i dun have such equipments to do so..maybe when i start attachment then i can get myself a camera.

she's cute, but lets stop there.

2008-08-18T23:40:00.003+08:00

how much would u go for ur project?

well thats what i asked myself and after what happen today.

u see, im having a presentation with my group for our events module and we are presenting a wedding event. so today we went to finish up all the unfinished stuffs. and it stretched all the way till 10 pm...

so we were like still in sch at 10 pm..and we realised that there was nobody else in sch and it was dark. s0 we had no choice but to climb over the fence la....luckily it wasnt tat high..but my fren was afraid to climb over it..she was so scared that she stopped halfway at the top of the fence. but my fren helped her down...

so after tat experience i came to tink tat ive never did so much for a project in my life before...stayed late...but wat made it worse is tat i was locked in sch and had to climb over the fence...man...it wasnt in the job description man...haha!!

so once again..how much would u do for a project? which project took alot of effort from u?

share it with us!

shadow out

2008-08-11T00:57:00.001+08:00

saturday's soccer was ok...looking back at my current tally of goals and adding it up with sat score sheet, i scored 4 goals making it 17 in total...

slacked at home on national day...was tired...holiday today...and im happy that fresh green papers have arrived!!

3 weeks left in sch...and lots of things to settle in between this 3 weeks.

shadow out

2008-08-08T00:10:00.002+08:00

yesterday's tournament was great...just made it to the quarter finals....faced two tough teams in our group stage..lost one and won one....we were really scared..but after we made it to the quarter finals, we felt like as if we won the world cup...hahaa...

i only played in the match that we won and also the quarter finals during the second half..i didnt concede any goals while playing as the last man...but made crucial tackles which saved the team from losing hope...

and yeah..happy 08.08.08 everybody..make a wish

shadow out

2008-08-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

today is kumar's bdae...the class celebrated his bdae by surprising him with a bdae cake!

will upload the gay pics when i get them next,

and not to forget, tmr is the tournament...alrite, here we go!

2 matches in the group stage, no team can afford to lose.

and a hundred eyes witnessing...

well there is this saying from my dad,

i used to ask him whats the difference between a match with lots of ppl watching and a match with no ppl watching?

he said, if there are spectators, even the worst players will play like stars.

so as long as there are spectators, there is pressure, so i guess i lie in that category

shadow out.

2008-08-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

had test today and know what? i fell asleep! man...and i woke up in the last 5 mins...i dont usually feel sleepy during tests, but dunno wats with me..its like the brain engine suddenly wants to shut down...

so thats gonna be a definite fail and my first failure..shit man...but i will make up for it dun worry!

have been contemplating abt this year, and i must say this year is where i get to meet her more often...

and my attachment is approaching soon! on the month of October that is...frankly, gonna miss sch and i prefer sch to attachment...

and again i will seperate from my frens and classmates....ite has left me with nice memories which i nvr thought i wud have..

gonna miss talking abt sex in class..cos me and my bros will comment on hot girls...and i must say...since april..the banking girls are really hot!!! more like 'banging' girls...if u noe wat i mean...haha,,

and this coming thursday, i have a tournament and me and my team mates know that we wont be able to make it...we joked of backing out...but see how la hor..

shadow out

2008-07-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

there is only one movie that is awesome and worth more than 1 view...the dark knight..

its such an awesome movie that no words can be used to describe it..

joker has always been the best villain in the batman world and they really did good job with it..

though 2 hours plus long, each second of the movie can never be missed..and they really play a suspense music that makes us in suspense...

10 out of 10 for the movie the dark knight....

and now to my life report

was sick for the whole week last week. had fever and just recovered last friday...but even after that i had headache so i kinda went to sleep early..so today is the first time i used the comp since then...

alot has been happening lately and im kinda packed with project deadlines and everyday school life...personal life? lets just say im feeling happier but at the same time not so happier...

2008-07-02T19:33:00.002+08:00

just returned from my class chalet...

the chalet was held at aloha loyang, and it has been ages since i went to pasir ris...even then didnt had the opportunity to visit the shops over there since we were there somewhere past midnight.

had a good time there since it was weeks since i met my other classmates..

had lots of food..nothing surprising huh...haha

swam in the swimming pool for the first time with my girls classmates...

after that we walked to down town east pasir ris park...

my frens left me and lily sleeping at the pool side la...like wth...

she woke me up and i was like, eh where the others?

but i couldnt be bothered so i went back to slp...haha

well chalet was a blast...and i have 2 or 3 months left with my classmates..so the chalet is something memorable..

shadow out

2008-06-20T14:40:00.002+08:00

haha!!

as expected, germany beat portugal once again! well even though there was a 10 min scare since portugal scored another to make it 3-2 in the 85 min, but we managed to hold them back for the win which is well deserved for germany

germany's first goal was the best

a double one-two between podolski and lahm and again podolski and ballack...

podolski broke thru the defence and managed to physically challenge pepe who was having a hard time most of the time against podolski's speed and power. and send a text book side pass for shweinstiger to slot in the ball with speed and accuracy.

well hope to see whats going to happen next....

shadow out

2008-06-20T00:49:00.001+08:00

first, i really appreciate it zal...haha..i just miss our old days...and guess what? ive been jogging...haha...thats an improvement....

so work was ok since there was a renovation and there wasnt much to do :D

watching germany vs portugal later

u know what happened in the last world cup rite?

2008-06-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

okay..just a random thought....

i know zal is facing a crisis in his life....he is injured badly...and its not his first time....

remember when u broke ur elbow zal? yeah..thats the scariest rite...

and u came back...and u were our best strikers...yeah our team can score.....niap, u, me, haziq and hz....

remember our 4 consecutive wins without any rest? we were at our best...

but lately we havent been winning...and guess what? the small kids team is owning 108...

come on guys....we need to get back to earth....and start winning!!!!

for zal...many athletes have been injured badly..and they came back as champions

not the kind of champion that wins the cup

but the kind of champion that fight against their injury and played with their best

im not telling zal to continue playing with that injury

but im telling u to not lose confidence in urself...

always keep pushing over the limits, as the human body knows no boundaries

our team is incomplete without u zal..

so zal...practice slowly...our team should regroup and shine in 108 again!

i know u mite be thinking im nuts,,,but just being concerned....our team is losing confidence....to gain it back, we need to practice

shadow out

2008-06-16T01:16:00.002+08:00

had a hectic weekend since the start of my sch holidays....

sat:

went to vivo in the afternoon to get my friend's bdae present
after that was hectic as i went to have my hair cut and went to wrap the present myself...

so was ard 9 went i went out to meet them

reached marina square ard 10.30 because of the jam...

walked ard the area, to the spore flyer and esplanade...

so we hanged out till the next day at marina square 24 hour macdonald.

there was me, prem and joan, the bdae gerl..

so went home in the morning and slept till 1130

sunday:

woke up like wat i mentioned above, and the day was even hectic bcos i need to be on time for hasan's gig,

went to haz hse to carry out his request, after that rushed to johor

reaced there ard 3 pm, was on time for haz performance, i could only hear haz first and second performance as the gate was packed and we were slowed by it.

but luckily we managed to see his 3rd performance and saw haz blooper on stage..hehe..

their band played reall well and we slacked as we wanted to see the times perform...

but unfortunately their performance was like damn late and we dont want to get stucked anywhere since we're really damn tired after a long day, we went home

haz treated me to dinner....well thats the least he could do after i became his errand boy.

and thats it....hectic dont u tink so?

so im going to rest today...

shadow out

2008-06-06T00:19:00.001+08:00

just finished washing up after reaching home at 11 plus ytd...

hanged out with my juniors....

really had a great time...when to marina square for dinner and had free starbucks coffee...3 cups in total...since my friends cant finish it..lol....

hope to hang out more often with them soon...but gotta save for next week.

shadow out

2008-06-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

alright!! soccer was not so good today but still, i scored a goal!!! making it 13 in my account....it was a header...not my forte, but i nailed it anyway....need more runs to improve my stamina...

2 weeks to go before term break, test this tuesday....

goal of the week= make full use of time

shadow out

2008-05-29T01:10:00.002+08:00

i love this chinese drama called rhythm of life...

wanted to watch the repeat at youtube..

but instead the person uploaded the 5 unshown episodes and in the end the videos were banned i youtube...sad sa...

i want to see my gf act so much!!!!!!!!!!!!

sad

i miss jeanette aw!

shadow out

2008-05-25T01:34:00.002+08:00

time is 1230 sunday morning

just returned from meeting yong hui

started saturday by going for my ymca camp briefing

was from 3 to 6

but was late, 20 mins late

the briefiing was very boring can...luckily it ended at 530

so me and my frens when to Plaza sing to play arcade

after that went to buy tickets at the cathay for the movie called "made of honour"

the movie was damn packed man...so i had no choice but to choose the 820 show.....at the front row!

after i bought the tickets, when to meet her at cineleisure....walked to ps to and had dinner at ljs.....watched the movie after that.

but enjoyed the movie cause it had a great plot.

after the show, we walked towards the esplanade, when we reached there, we went to the rooftop garden

had a beautiful sight cause the city lights was dazzling..
even had a good view of the singapore flyer...and the lights of the flyer keeps changing!

so we hanged around till 11 cos tats the time the garden is closed.

took bus 97 to je....after that go home.

its been awhile since i spend so much time with a girl...but its something i want to do again,

still sticking to the policy of no relationships with any girls....

i just want to go out with girls and spend a day with them

thats all

shadow out

2008-05-22T11:32:00.001+08:00

She makes me feel like it's raining outside..and when the stars are gone,i'm all torn up inside..

Haz

2008-05-21T21:25:00.001+08:00

Having frens like mine is like having none...

Haz

2008-05-17T00:26:00.002+08:00

yesterday in school, there is this event in the school's restaurant.

then there is this flaring showcase, okay first let me give u a brief detail about flaring.

flaring is a skill of juggling the bottle in the process of making a cocktail.

but the one i saw in school used plastic bottles cause of safety reasons. but in real life they use those glass bottles of bacardi and such,

the ppl that showed the stunt was really awesome, though there were some glitches here and there, i mean nobody is perfect right, but the way they did it was really awesome man,

so right now my dream jobs is becoming a barista and make coffe at starbucks, tcc, and such

and

to learn flaring and work in night clubs.

i mean hey, we are still young and sticking to one job for a lifetime is really a bummer,

so why not change job every 1 year or so and after we are exposed to so many diff occupations there are in this world, then we can stick to our dream job.

i plan to work in nightclubs after my industrial attachment or maybe after NS and after that get my ass back to the hotel line and get that most wanted top position.

shadow out

2008-05-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

today went to plaza singapura to watch harold and kumar and i must say, its as damn funny movie, that gets u laughing almost everytime throughout the movie...plus the level of vulgarity and nudity, its really a must watch, plus, a stint of racism, which makes it even funnier,

but too bad this week is probably its last appearance at the movies cause this kind of movies have a short life span on the theatres, so catch it while its still here..

pretty bored at school this few days...i want to be fit....but thats just a dream...

shadow out

2008-05-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

played soccer on sunday and im surprised that i regained my form following the disaster of last week.

and last thursday played and lost against my juniors. one of them were from sports school. so that guy was like not from this world.

anyway, scored 2 goals, making it 12 goals. but i dun think there'll be any more soccer within a month thanks to a long injury list of the squad.

saturday my family went out to eat something different, we went to arab street to eat arab food, at el-sheikh.

the dishes is somewhat like a western dish. as its serve with beef, chicken. and lamb.
i think its nice but theres no sauce. but at least i know how arab food tastes like.

and im getting the mood to play the guitar nowadays, cant wait to get things popping. was inspired from a junior of mine.

shadow out

2008-05-04T16:35:00.003+08:00

haizz...i'm so lost without my frens...it's damn bored at home..

anyway,i promised someone to post a new entry..and i kinda forgot bout dat..aha..sorry..

Ok erm..i'm gonna write about the performance last week i guess..

so yea..been signing up our band for gigs..we're gonna hav 3 performance this month..one,of coz,juz been done last week..two are still in the upcoming list..

How i wish my frens could watch me perform..but nah..all of them seemed like having some 'phobia' or wat shit entering msia..mayb they are disgusted by the thrash on the side of the road or something..

Anyways,the performance last week was almost wonderful/great/magnificent..but only for the 1st,3rd and 4th song..The 2nd song was thrashed..coz we kinda practice exactly the day before and we went crazy in the jamming room..jumpings and all..ayie lost his voice at the end of the jamming session..

and sad to say,the 2nd song needed a real high note for d voice..so yea..not only he couldnt reach the note,but he kinda squealed at the mic on dat part...he did it alot of times,i wondered why he didnt give up and simply sing a lower note..

At the end of the set,he told me dat there was some guy at the front seat (an afro,damn supportive) who kept on signaling him to 'keep trying' when we were playing d song..

I'm like,from angry,i decided to cool down..coz i saw the inner part of him..he kept on squealing not bcoz he wanna spoil the band's performance or anything,instead,he wanna prove to everyone his determination will never fail him..and i still believe in such a thing when i'm reminded of dat day..

I tried to get high on the stage..but i couldnt la definitely..bcoz the squealings made me paisey already ah..aha..there's alot of ppl ok..

U know like..imagine Jurong Point..the stage which is in d middle..then when there's something going on on the stage,ppl will lean onto the railings to watch..ya..it was definitely like dat..

People from above and front kept on staring when we were sound checking..gosh..u dunno the chills i got at dat time..

Anyway,here's the vid..performing one of our originals..called She Lost Her Mind..and it's our last song..U could see i made some effort to get high,but i couldnt..aha..and damn..i love hibri's hp..so damn good or wat..like video cam sia..

The cameraman was abit dumb i guess..coz he focused on the basis and drummer when i'm actually doing the interlude..'solo' ah for a simpler term..hah..dammit..!!

2008-04-26T20:55:00.003+08:00

today's soccer was awesome. we were in an 4 match unbeaten run. we played well even though there were some confusion in defence. but we were composed and played well

well i have somethihng different today. i scored 3 goals! makin it 10 goals man. see, im improving man. yeap. all because i wanted to beat the opposing team.

my first goal was a solo effort. dribbled the ball in the left flank, shielded the ball and scored with a sweet right leg tap in.

second goal was a nice timing cause i was there when rishi assisted me with the deflection shot and i was there to score.

the third was the sweetest. probably the goal of the week. a solo effort, i intercepted an opponent cross in our left flank and with a nice touch brought the ball bouncing forward to the enemy half of the court, knowing that i have a powerful left leg, i positioned myself to make a scorching volley from the half court and scored on the bottom left corner of the goal post. the keeper was in the wrong position to save it and there were no markers.

im just happy with the volley, its something which is difficult to execute in a match where there is pressure and the intensity to win. and yes a moment of magic is all that we need. but its just makes me so happy to execute it and score. and it was a precised shot. exactly at the bottom left corner of the goal

oh well. thats my moment to remember. hope there is more. i know i cant do a bycicle kick, but a long range volley is enough for me

shadow

signing out

2008-04-23T23:07:00.003+08:00

yeap. im sure zal is waiting for my entry anxiously today.

so met her along with her friends. and was introduced to her mum too.

so we went jp to eat. hang around for awhile. and send her home

and yarh the last card was played. end of story.

but like wat i promised earlier, i will only talk to her if she talk to me first.

and she loves my present. she started wearing it already.

thats all zal. lol

2008-04-20T17:01:00.003+08:00

todays soccer was good. scored one goal making it 7 goals.. well at least im scoring goals each week. but todays score was a long range shot. well. i caught the off angle of the keeper so that he cant save. :D

but it was kept short since there werent that many people.

tomorrow im going. and yeah i know. 23rd the day. but what to do. i cant destroy myself.

2008-04-14T23:56:00.005+08:00

Ok..let's see...

First day of school...hmmm...was fine i guess...=)

i came alittle on-time and my frens kept pestering me.."Why didnt u come earlier? The canteen was filled with chicks u know.."

aha..this guy talks as if i'm so interested in looking at them..lolz..

Cmon ah..we only get to see them..not like we could have them someday...So why tempt urself to having the impossible? hah..

Anyway,there were lots of matrep today at school..i'm thinking they are this year's freshmen from higher nitec..and dat is of coz,a problem..as u could see,they walk in as if they own the place..bahhh..1st year only,wanna show off ah..walk in groups arh,conquer big tables...

but nvm,jealousy brings me nowhere but to grow hatred in myself..

Guess it's up to them whether they wanna make sp seems like an ite or a poly itself..quite sad to see my frens get disgusted at the sight of them..hmmm..my frens are malay tho..so dun imagine some nerdy-studious chinese guys..XD

Ouh ya...I'm actually on my 8th korean movie..damn sia...Koreans sure know how to make comedy/romance movies..

They are so box-officed...even hollywood respects them..

And guess wat..N,also known as Near,actually know these movies..when i describe the movie,he's so right at naming the title..

I'm thinking N is yearning for someone to hit on him soon..coz korean movies are like 'love fantasies coming true' and N seriously dreams for dat..aha..dat explains why he's so attached to watching them..lolz..

Am very sorry for not posting..I kinda felt something amiss when i saw my frens stop posting..It felt like someone hitting back a nail on my head..aha..dat's the reason why i'm typing here..and truly..i'm writing this post in such a slow manner,i've definitely lost my flow..so as people say,Practice Makes Perfect..aha..yup2..dat's so my motto in my life..practice practice practice...dat's wat i'm gonna do..=)=)=)

Anyway..band's fine..ayie and my basis,zaim,dropby last saturday to buy a bass at bras basah..He brought RM800...which of coz..seemed big ah..can buy so many things with dat in their country..but when i exchange it into S$...it ends up so little arh..S$343...wahhh...we were hoping at least a S$360..guess not...

Erm..got him a Fender Squier bass..since he wants fender so much..hah..i bargained alot,seems like im becoming more of my mum pretty soon..lolz..Also bought a strap juz like mine..the one with locks..yeye! can swing guitar..aha..=X

However,they stayed only for 2days 1 night..since my school's starting the next day..and ayie's too..We bought underground ciggies..hah..basket..dunno why the apek bau hancing(urine kinda smell)..mayb he wanna act poor ah if any police comes..aha..

And i dunno why aisyah gave me her new number..she muz be nuts..lolz

Haz

2008-04-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

Todays soccer was great..once again i had the chances at my mercy but i just cant get the ball to the back of the net..

however in the end i scored a goal and created another with my mazy runs..lol.

so yeah..i influenced the match :D

just like how Toni influenced Bayern to victory. :D

so thats 6 goals? ^-^

hey..im just a winger.. well..not as good as nani...but soon2...

ok..tmr and tues is gona be busy...

gtg.

2008-04-06T01:20:00.003+08:00

Saturday's soccer was great...but i have to say and admit that i did decisions that are not good and instead not even making a shot....i know i wasted alot of chances....there were times where i could have made the shot but instead i either passed the ball to a team mate or didnt took the initiative..

so i wasnt satisfied clearly...cuz i still wanted to play actually...i juz wanted to push myself over my limits...

but after reflecting, i did score a goal, making it 5 goals in 3 weeks of matches...cos we didnt play any match b4 today.

and i did had alot of shots....so y the unhappiness?

maybe because i didnt get to play in my fave position..

but i did help to control the flow of some matches...but then again...some mathces were too fast paced...we played the long ball approach today...and i guess i just made wrong decisions today...

uh...dun wan to tink abt it but i guess i just have to redeem myself nxt time..

next week is gona be so packed...i tink...

Monday: meet lily and gang to celebrate her bdae...n maybe hZ too...but at 430 i need to go city hall for an interview for a court case...

tuesday working

wednesday unsure

thurs working

friday unsure

sat free

sun free

till here...

2008-04-03T12:27:00.000+08:00

A PROMISE FOR LIFE

haz

2008-04-03T00:44:00.001+08:00

A PROMISE FOR LIFE

shadow

signing out

2008-03-25T23:57:00.002+08:00

today went to bbdc to finally walk the talk, though N was busy last minute, i went there alone.

well, it was kinda scary to be alone there as there is aplenty of teenagers like me who are either there for their lessons or to register like me.

well, i didnt expect the area to have gerls. but yeah, there were, im shocked.

things went smoothly. man, there is alot of stuffs to remember, i must book my test date in advance, book a couple of lessons which is necessary. and then in the later2 part only i have to book for practice and evaluation. and after that i can take advance theory...so many things to remember le.

well. other than that, it takes a huge sum of money!

my bank is short of 200 G's.

that's a huge blow for me man.

well got to recover the losses

till here

2008-03-23T17:42:00.015+08:00

I guess zal lightened up the burden i had by updating bout wat happened for the last 3 days...bout me,fool and the fourforlorns...He somehow summarised up everything..=)

We also recorded a video of last night..22 March 2008..which is a freaking long video ah..30mins..aha! who wants to watch dat..

i'm thinking of cutting some quiet scenes..then mayb i'll put it in the blog..

however,after much thoughts,i think it's too highly rated to be uploaded in here arh..lolz...We'll see how the cutting goes,k..? Coz there's lots of hot stories in there..aha..

Ouh yea..zal didnt update bout he and her being sick all of a sudden on the same day,right?...riteee...coincidence?? i think not..

but..ok la..HIV positive isnt dat bad wat,zal...lol..=X

Eh..before i forgot,i made a vid of myself covering As You're Falling Down by Escape The Fate...

It's been years eversince i wanted to make a vid covering some songs...Finally..a dream come true!! XD

Erm..I believe qyd would be a suitable candidate to have the honour to comment about d vid as she knows the song well and she could see how good d guitarist is when she sees him/her..aha..*mcm faham*..

But maybe true la..who noes she could do dat...=)

And it would be great if u guys know how to rate me..Muahahahahaha..

Haz

2008-03-20T14:56:00.002+08:00

worked nite shift alone last nite...but luckily friday is coming so im glad with it....

i will be away for three days but no, i wont return to spore speaking like haz.

frankly ive been contemplating abt life. sumtimes u wish for time to just pass u by and sumtimes u wish time just stopped forever.

well. in reality we cant stop time. n to let time pass by is truely a waste. bcos we cant get back every second that passed.

thats y sumtimes life is too short. especially if u let it pass u.

walking past shuqun in the morning reminds me of the old days.

days where u have to be in sch before 725.

days when there is maths,eng,science etc.

days where u have cca's

days where u spend most of ur teenage years at

days where u are curious and experiment it

days when u could see the principal talking to u everyday (sheesh)

days when the canteed food cost cheaper and the portion is generous

and so on.

those 5 years have been both sweet and sour.

and to see how much time has passed really gives u the creeps.

it means how fast u growed and how fast time flies.

means ure getting older. well i wished to be 18 for the rest of my life ( i tink every1 wished the same too, including ur parents)

but that is just not reality. and we have to face reality. its the very thing that u face in ur life. u cant dream. u just have to face reality. and only a strong person can face reality.

well im not prepared for reality. yes ive seen alot of toughness in life but im not prepared for it.

there will be poor ppl who cant afford food and will steal. and when u catch these ppl and u see they are old ppl just like ur granny age, u pity them

imagine how many poor ppl out there, with no food and shelter

while most of us have shelter and food at our table.

and what abt the not so normal families?

families that dun allow their child to study but told them to work instead since the age of 14!

imagine how their lives would be and what the future holds for them?

ppl like us who have a normal life crave for more, not knowing that there those that dun even live a normal life like us

we have to be thankful that god gave us a normal life, not handicapped, normal family.

while having the ones u love is impt. the ones that brought u here and raised u for 19 years are the ones u shud love the most. mums must nvr be forgotten!

yes life is confusing. and it takes a hard way for u to learn ur lesson.

so i will stop here.

i hope u r enlightened and ur mind refreshed. reset ur priorities, take some breather and get ready to face reality. its ok if ure not ready. there's still time.

2008-03-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

17 march

started the day by going to centrepoint to get some chocolates for my fren sheeda

on the way, i went browsing shopping..(trying on and in the end leave the shop wif out buying)

so at abt 5 plus met hani and sheeda.(i noe i told zal tat i wun meet her again but its for a different reason tis time)

so ate a light meal at jp.. gave sheeda present and send hani home

but tis time i duno if i feel happi or not...cuz my mind was disturbed...

but after that, went to plaza sing for my dinner with yong hui.. my ex crush

she is working at smrt now..as an admin girl.

well..mite be meeting her more often in the future

till here

2008-03-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

13 march

spend the day at my class outing at the bowling centre at taman jurong. played till 1 plus. i was the top bowler. haha. im surprised. but its just tat my classmates were too lousy. hehe. they thought i was good. but im just a rookie.

so won a 50 buck voucher. can use it for food.

after that went to plaza singapura. b4 that lily was crying. tats for me to noe. for u to find out.hehe

so went to eat. was starving man. after that play arcade. den home ard 730

alrite. today's plan

:prayers
go to skin centre
go home rest
work 11 pm to 7 am

saturday: maybe got soccer. dunno leh. but weekends free :D

till here

2008-03-09T18:36:00.002+08:00

today's soccer was awesome. thought that i woudnt have the chance to play since it was raining. but when the rain settled, and a team appeared, i told myself to prove myself in that match.

we were equally matched. but we were more determined. i scored 3 goals and that was impressive for me personally. to sum up. 4 goals since my bdae in 2 weeks.

i dont usually score but i usually attack from the back or a counter attack. but there were the efforts at least.

exam next weeek. 2 days only after that can slack. oh yah. i wan to register for licence. gotta go. i wan to see how i can register online liao.

2008-03-03T00:30:00.003+08:00

last saturday soccer i scored my first goal since my bdae..yaay! it was a good equalising goal..overall..our first match was good...after a long training sessions...our team formation was good...we were organised

supposed to play on sunday too but wasnt free.

2 weeks left before skool holiday..

till here then...kinda tired

2008-02-29T00:32:00.002+08:00

thursday was blood donation day..was the ushers..so bcos of tat, made new frens...with the juniors..of my course...so now my contacts have increased..

haha..hmm..exam coming soon...better study..

so february is over n march is coming..the middle part of the year is approaching soon..

love is just nonsense...sorry..its just a thought..

2008-02-25T00:31:00.003+08:00

its been a busy weekend for me..

well, its my bdae on 2302

so tats y its busy.

started the weekend by working sunrise shift (11-7am) on friday nite.

i worked alone from 2 to 7 am

it was ok..not any customers..or anytink else..

so on sat morning, accompanied my bro to polyclinic after work

returned home at 9 plus

was dying for a slp.

so slept till 3 pm..tot i cud meet her..but she overslept

so at 445 i went out to meet liily at jp...she passed me tis sweet looking and nice biscuit cake thingy from famous amos.

it was from siti,and sheila too..

but the meeting with lily is part of my ite frens plan to hold me up.

so after gd bye went to city hall

reached there at 515..

i tot every1 will be there waiting for me alr..but no one was there yet..

so i called my frens and asked them whr are they...i was feeling restless cos i was early for the first time...so after waiting for like 30 mins, a fren of mine came down..so he told me tat the others will be late and said we shud go and reserve a table at pizza hut first..

so i told him i felt cheated cos they all so late...

but i felt very malu wen i saw all my frens tat turned up at the outing seated inside the pizza hut at marina square alr..

i was shocked cos my fren didnt Q for the table, he juz went in so tats when i saw my frens and felt malu..

so in my mind was, so is tis the surprise? wow, it made me very malu. i mean nobody has surprised me like this b4..im like wow..

so we were looking thru the menu until suddenly the lights near our table was turned off..

i tot it was sumkind of power failure or wat la..

so suddenly i heard a bdae tune...i was wondering wat was happening..so i heard ppl sing happy bdae to me..

n a choc cake came to our table, wif candles...i was so damn surprised...

i nvr had a bdae celebrated like tis b4...now i noe the real way and meaning for a bdae to be celebrated..all thx to my ite frens...they really planned my celebration..

so after we had our cakes, we had our pizzas...yummy..

and my hp was busy wif bdae wishes..haha! thx guys!

after tat went to play arcade and we went slacking overnite at sengkang

there got nthing much lah...we juz walked ard..

Sunday 24 feb

i reached home at 7 am..bathed and went to slp cos got soccer later at 11...woke up at 12 plus...reached soccer at 1 plus

played till 3..still cant meet her...so went home

at 6 met zal, N n HZ..

we went to seoul garden at Ngee Ann city..had the food and played ard

it was enjoyable really

thx alot guys..it was great :D

reached home at 11

so now mon got skool...

wat a hectic weekend rite?
haha

wat a bdae

shadow

signing out

2008-02-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

so...went to give some chocs to my fren...but was too tired to rmb wat i wanted to say...so yarh..met her frens...very frenly...

so yarh...lemme stress wat i really need...for my bdae...(wah ambitious sa me)

a new Billabong wallet preferebably black or green or anytink nice

a levis watch (if u wan to buy it for me, must be under my consultation)

eat at swensen's

watch movie

hope tat my frens wun get angry if i cant celebrate wif them

upgrade my hp...

get more apparrels...more long sleeves..

i tink tats all i want for 19...im getting older...man...

too shy to say the three words...
mind went blank for words..

how sweet she looks when i look into her eyes..
and how she would look back for me when she was abt to go down the stairs..

a smile and wave was wat i get..
a developed understanding each time we met.

shadow
signing out

2008-02-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday was spent at town...watched sweeney todd...its a musical u see, so most of the times the characters talk by singing...not that bad...cause there is alot of throat slithering during the climax of the movie..

after the movies went to lucky plaza to play some pool

before that, while on the way to lucky plaza, grabbed some double choc at mcCafe..took some pics...but i look stupid in it seriously..hur hur..

so in the end the gals were scared to enter the pool area...cause they scared of the mat reps (dunno how to spell)

so the gals went to play arcade while the guys played pool...

after that we hanged out at the McCafe near Shaw building..(Lido i tink)

grabbed a milk shake and just chat till 10..we generally just chatted abt anythink tat comes to our mind..

after that went home...

at home, grabbed some supper and watched Hitch...very funny and enlightening...

tired, slept

so tats abt everytink...CNY was very fast..and for the first time spore looked empty...well almost...back to normal life...

shadow

signing out

2008-02-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

u noe...the current affairs today is all abt rising cost and inflation...

and since im studying abt business stuffs and entrepenuership, im really wondering if i we the new generation will be affected by it...

is it gona be a positive effect or negative effect?

so hearing all this news got me wondering..

we wont noe what wud a cost of a loave of bread woud be in 10 years...

no wonder soccer players are asking for more pay..

so went to shop for clothes wif haz..

giordano was disappointing....wat i wanted had no more size....ok so now i realise that spore have very few fat ppl cuz the only size available is L or XL...so congrats sporeans!!! all of u are healthy and fit ppl!!!

so went to find for alternatives....in the end found one at espirit...

den went to accompany haz for haircut....

in the end all the salons were charging extra for cny...so in the end he didnt cut his hair...

so we went home...and now im rushing to prepare my presentation tmr...hope its my turn cuz i cant stand the pressure anymore man...

this week will be a short week, with cny coming up....and it wont be a normal one..

shadow

signing out

2008-02-01T19:04:00.000+08:00

juz got back from sending her home...

at least this time was better...

held her hand when we were crossing the road...caught her by surprise.

i pulled her hand den she said" oh mak kau.." den we laughed..

after that didnt let go...but i rmb tat we were frens oni so i let go...

her perfume is so strong...felt happy to see her after such a long time.. :D

looked at her eyes this time..she nvr look elsewhere tis time but juz smiled oni...but me being me i smiled den looked elsewhere...saiful saiful...wat a shy asshole!

met her at je mrt....den go lakeside..den take bus..den walked...

wei haz...forget abt me uh? dun be a stranger ok?!
how can u forget ur bro sa...we moshed together sa...(tats the best moment of 2007)

haha..kk

shadow
signing out

2008-02-01T11:02:00.000+08:00

I'm guessing i'm gonna have to repeat some modules in the next semester..2 out of 4 modules mayb..

One coz of a sucky teacher,and another is because it's not my field..sigh..

While one of my good fren is gonna repeat the whole semester coz he was so much distracted by soccer..I mean..in the middle of the semester,they hav a 10-day trip to Perth for a match? aha..if u could picture dat,then i guess u would definitely know the reason why he's failing..not forgetting,he cant turn up for 2 tests coz of being a benchwarmer for 2 finals..

Ok,coming back to me..

I have a feeling dat i'm leaving again..but it wont be the usual 3-4 days or a week kinda trip..I'm thinking of the whole 2 and a half months living there...and i'm serious...Maybe it would do me good..and maybe not too..i dunno..I juz wanna run away...=(

Speaking of running away..u guys should have already realised i've put in a new song...yea...this song kind of reminds me of someone..Used to tell her to stop running away..and in the end our relationship juz went astray...guess we simply cant last for a year..

So close...yet so far...

There u go qyd..
an update from me..aha..
Now u owe me one..okay?
Anyway,i'll miss u guys when i'm off..
No worries..
I'll think of u,zal..in every second dat i've been given by god..

aha..Oops..i think that's alittle overboard..lolz..XD

Haz

2008-01-28T00:33:00.000+08:00

Weekend was spent mainly to rest..sunday played soccer in the rain...but its ok lah..the rain make me in a having fun mood..

alrite..this coming week got project presentation and housekeeping presentation...its gonna be fast..but i got to do my best so tat i will score high marks for my gpa!

come on..the newly crowned B3 for english..haha..but F9 for maths le..how can like tat? embarassing le...

im sure i can make a wonderful presentation..just be less nervous and give ur best saiful!

need to practice guitar sa...aiyo..how to improve if nvr practice? den my bro wan to jam...aiyo...

laughter is the best medicine

shadow

signing out

2008-01-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...been a long time since i told u guys about how my life is at home...in my *room* to be specific...

Last i remember...i said...everytime when i reach home,i would feel very depressed as the moment i enter my room,the loneliness will dominate me..and i hate dat..i hate it when i have to think of someone...someone who has not msged me for the whole week...could reach 2-3 weeks sometimes...yea..That kind of stuff...juz bad old times i guess..

Now's a whole new story...yup2...everytime i step into my room,i'll always remember my good old fren juz waiting for me touch him..aha..ok..dat sounds so wrong..

Anyway,hope u guys would have already guessed who he is...

My good old buddy...

actually..he's kinda new..aha..yea..
bought him a month ago..which caused me to finish up my bank ah..lolz..

Ok erm..mayb some of u would have already be thinking dat i'm nuts and stuff...like...how can i call a guitar my fren? Well..yea..i cant explain dat..it's juz simply the only one dat's been there for me..of coz including my other frens who has been there for me too (zal,N and shadow)..but for daily routines,gotta say..he's the only one i hang onto..whom helped me forget bout gurls..XD

My cousins,ayie and alem used to ask me..If a pirate were to question me..do u want me to dump ur guitar into the sea or maybe ur girlfren instead? I would say...dump girlfren better...aha..coz she's juz a pain d heart..and my guitar is the one who has always been there for me..

Conclusion...i'll definitely choose my guitar over my girlfren if such a threat were to be laid on me..understand? aha..ok..dat's juz a joke..

The actual conclusion is dat..the one u really love..is the one that has always been there for u..the one that has always been sitting right beside u in every of ur vulnerable moment...and hence,someday u will know which one u need to save from falling apart..

Moving on to jamming sessions..it has been years since i sweat while playing my guitar in my room..

In my room = sweating??

aha..yup2..Here's a something to show u guys wat i actually do when i play my guitar in my room..Could look wierd to those of u who has never been to a gig or to those who dont listen to post hardcore bands..but i'm juz glad i could show the real me to my bestest frens..

And i'm blaming qyd for exposing me to 'post hardcore' music..lolz..I hate u,can?

aha..jk..i luv it actually..Thanks qyd..=)

And dun laugh at the vid okay..it's juz me..aha..really2..

and yarh..before u guys ask me about the polo shirt i'm wearing in d vid..I'll be honest..I actually forgot to bathe yesterday..and hence the same shirt this morning..aha..Oops..kinda shocked myself..i mean..gosh..i actually forgot to bathe?? aha..wth rite...guess dat shirt is being worn for 3 days arh..lolz..=X

Haz

2008-01-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

zal,near & haz
"The old-time bloggers" =)

Hmmm...Can u see raj's face expression? Of coz not..aha...Oops..

Wonder wat's with these two...hmmmmmmm..

Went to Shuqun sec yesterday to celebrate with raj upon the arrival of his results..He was however depressed when he met us outside of school..

Eventhough he improved from last year..he still failed somehow..his results is 2x more than wat he aimed...which is of coz,u see the reason of his total disappointment..

Anyway,while waiting for him to come out,Kathi's mom approached us..which at first,we dunno who she is ah..aha..it was my first meet up face to face with her mum,not sure if it was zal's first..then we talked and talked while waiting..about JC,MI,poly and stuff..

Her mum was really kind and easy to socialise with..Which made us glad ah..coz we definitely wouldnt want an awkward conversations with someone's parents..aha..definitely a NO NO..

Slowly,came Kathi..with her result..and keep saying i can go into MI..WOOHOO!! aha..our fren raj,standing beside us,getting more and more upset with the sound of dat gurl's voice..

Raj juz kept quiet..we know we gotta console him somehow..coz he suffered a year without his true frens with him in school..except for saturday soccers *which he dun always turn up for*

Ok..so we walk slowly to JE..let him relax his mind..went for lunch..then sit in JE library...of coz the *teen section* ah..aha..and we played the old legend WWE cards..i was d worse player there as i really2 cant dig myself into dat game ever again..but i can try tho..*if i want to*..aha..Oops..

Then comes the thing i hate most...which is asking gurl's number...gosh...get a life can,guys? Wat's the asking numbers for if u guys wont cherish them? U think funfair ah? If u're gonna be someone like me..then can ah..aha..Oops..jk..

Anyway,went to Fool's workplace after dat,but he wasnt there..not sure why..mayb he's in d store? doing something he shouldnt do? aha..u see...dat's wat i call God's retribution..doing something forbidden in d store,d punishment would be,no frens gonna visit u at work..aha..get it?

Ok..dat's juz crap...

Oh yea..before i forgot...kinda had a chat with qyd on the phone last night...till like..wat time was it? 12 midnight? aha..yea..talked for like almost 3 hours..and how glad i am when there wasn't any awkward silence..=)

Guess we juz had alot to talked about..=) No worries..secrets are meant to be kept..hehe..

Lastly,i would like to show u guys a vid of someone dat has changed me throughout and he's still one of the most important ppl in my life...He's Tom Delonge from the old Blink 182..and he has something to say which i myself agrees the most..Hope u guys do too..

Haz

2008-01-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

im frigging really have tight schedule to comply these days...

sch project, work, rest, social life.

frankly social life is going downward...

im losing my patience...i duno y...

i juz wan to win this game quickly..

but isnt patience a virtue?

ok..so tats y im blogging today..to reflect on my feelings..

maybe i shud remain patient...y the rush?

yeah..dun be an emo shit man...

ok2...i feel better now after reflecting..

alrite..i got powerpoint slides to finish and hand in tonite..gotta rush

i will remain patient..dun breakdown ful..im sure u will win her one day..juz be urself and keep remaining persistant..

keep meeting her and give her gifts and all...

Saturday= soccer was a good outing..we enjoyed dominance and possesion..

ok..i play better in left midfield..striker is a no-no..

no goals although there were shots on target..better luck nxt time

guess thats all

shadow

singing out

Special Guest(LHZ)

2008-01-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

Wah..been trying to post at my blog..but i couldnt post due to some spamming thing..wonder what zal and N would do..anyway i have been wondering why is it that sab's face is still in our blog?..just find it weird..aint they suppose to remove him long ago?(no offense against him)..haha..anyway i gotta thanks haz for letting me into their blog to post..=)

LHZ

2008-01-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

Friday 11 january:

finish school at 12..went to prayers..

4 pm met hani

saw her came down the stairs..i went to hide at first sight..

while hiding..took deep breathes while expecting for her arrival

so when i saw her i smiled, but got damn nervous

talked..but there was 1 big problem...

most of the time i was acting cool..it so wasnt myself..but its not my fault..i just wanted to be less nervous by being cool...

guess it wasnt good..i ended up acting cool rather than my usual self...

although there were some good conversations..but i felt incomplete..

sigh..the other problem is that she is damn hot..

no she did not wear any sexy outfit

but her physical features are just so tempting...

i ended up confused...damn confused..

even till now im confused..i feel like avoiding her now...

cant get things rite...

alrite so here is my room for improvement

: dun act cool..just be urself

write down topics which will help make conversations..believe me, sometimes ur mind will go blank..so take it as a back up plan..

oh well..just dun act cool next time

Shadow

signing out

2008-01-11T11:14:00.000+08:00

Currently bored in class...got nothing to do eventhough internet's juz a few steps away from me..sigh..hate friday so much..mayb coz of the 60 years old maths teacher and the damn excel module..Excel is like the worse module ever arh..haizzz..

and i'm wearing sweater under the hot sun..sick as ever.. =(

Gave zal,N and raj a tour at SP throughout the afternoon yesterday...and wow...it was damn tiring...zal,as usual,had more interest in looking at secondary girls who turned up for the SP open house instead of wanting to explore the premises..haizz...if i,in the first place,were to noe he is keen to do dat,i wouldnt wanna be his tour guide sia..knn..and dat is also one of the reason why we kept coming back to the convention centre..it's all zal's horny desire ah..aha..

Anyway,when i reached home yesterday..which is sad to say,at night...i jumped straight on to my bed and went to sleep..without even taking anything off me..and when i woke up,i realised i slept with my jeans on and my wallet still in the pocket..aha..gosh..didnt noe i had to go to sleep in such a bad manner..guess i was so sick..=(

Haz

2008-01-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

Went for soccer..and was dumb enough not to bring my street soccer shoes..

Kinda brought along my slippers instead...so i played soccer with my bestest frens using kaki ayam..aha..

Was fun la..until i realised i got blisters on both of my foot..how to go to work?? must wear boot somemore..aha..haizz...

However,i still went to work...

and damn...some ppl at my workplace actually realised i've been missing for some time..aha.. wow..of coz i was shocked..i thought dat place was full of ignorant ppl..

Anyway,i'm quite unwell right now...so sick...

Mayb coz i caught a cold this morning..

Or mayb i didnt hav enough sleep...coz i keep waking up and going back to sleep over and over again..trying to force myself to start studying...i hate it when dat happens..sigh..

Haz
I need someone whom i could talk to..
Someone who could help me get everything out dat's trapped in me..
I juz cant run away from all these all by myself..
I need dat someone..
I really do...
It's too much for me to handle..

To be the only one to feel the pain..
Dont you know i cant go on anymore?

Could anyone be my living diary?
Anyone? Please?

2008-01-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

today i went to meet my ite frens to discuss our entrepeneurship project

argh..tat reminds me..i will have lots of work to do once skool reopens..

well..the days are getting lesser..skool's starting soon...

well..tis fren of mine cant qualify for higher nitec..so tats y she was moody tat day..

she confessed it to me yesterday..i didnt even asked her..she even felt like talking to me on the phone..now tats shocking..

and she promised to make time for me :-D

skools starting soon..i dun tink i'll be free..

i mean im in higher nitec and there is more work to be done..

i want to have a good grade rmb? so tat i can make it to poly.

so i need to focus my time on skoolwork

and tats the main reaslon y i feel tat im not ready for a relationship

i juz dun have the time for commitment..tats y i feel the bet is stupid

tomorrow i wun be free..

ugh..i need to get a part time job..

and hey..maybe i shud help her look for a job..tat way she will be out of her house = can meet me

im so gonna send her home everyday if she has a job..hur hur..

ok2..enuf blabbering..

i was just reminded the time wen i was a small kid u noe..first day of skool...the fear and such..ok..enuf..

im just happy with my life :D..okay i need a job then its perfect

shadow

signing out

2008-01-01T17:38:00.000+08:00

hello 2008!

and a HAPPY NEW YEAR everybody

alrite then..

the year started by sleeping..haha..ok seriously

the year started by playing soccer to usher in the new year..

so despite my injury, i decided to play to warm up..

my form was like shit i tell u, i couldnt even execute my trademark...

well..tat alwaes happen rite? especially when u come back from an injury.

u need to work hard to gain back ur best form..

so after soccer went home

eat macdelivery

yummey..

alrite let me note down my 2008 resolutions

-to be a better player in the team.

-work on stamina

-upper body strength

-get a part time job

-dun be too eager to find true love(face it even if u do, u dun have money to do anything)

-make more new friends if possible( i doubt that can happen)

-do well in my studies this year, im graduating soon!!!!

-make a good impression on everybody

-be less shy and nervous

-be more closer to hani

-and all my friends of course :-)

-be more active in msn

-maintain a short haircut

-replenish my bank account

-put more effort and dun give up attitude

-chill at clubs more often

-obtain a car driving license

-stay free from alcohol and cigarette

-destress less often(oops!!)

-watch less porn(i doubt this can happen cos my ite frens will surely watch porn in class one..-_-)

-support The Rock movies which he act in

the list would go on if i continue...well..simply put i wanna be a better person in everything

alrite now to that passerby 89...

maybe u shud start by telling me ur real name

and sorry cos im in my bad mood and i dont care abt others wen im down

so yarh

shadow

signing out

2007-12-31T18:02:00.001+08:00

Hmmm...guess it's my turn to write my last post of the year..=)

Ok..Major highlights of the year...

Let's see...

Oh yea..got my result at the first few months of the year..and got myself a pass..so as my frens too..but some juz decided to try again eventhough got into SP! aha..siao gina..and yea not forgetting,i got into poly..

Secondly..talking about O lvl results,i remembered the first few times i actually bonded myself with N and Hz..it was when we 4 (N,fool,zal and me) decided to accompany Hz to Shatec for his application..Seemed so much like a normal day till the day reached afternoon..

Dat of coz leads to another major highlight of the year.."I spotted an angel!!"...aha..in another words..."I found the right one!!"..=)

We went out a few days later..and erm..somemore somemore la..cannot tell..lolz..

Thirdly,i made alot of new frens in my new school..

but..i dun hav to remind myself..coz i always know,old friends are your true ones..

Fourthly,i'm falling out of school..my my..i'm still waiting for someone to spark my life..yet no one's coming..how long do u want me to wait for u? (i dunno who the 'u' too..how i wish i know la) haizz...

My Last Highlight

Got myself the biggest embarrassment ever in my life juz a few days ago and i'm still wishing it never happened..

I mean like...my goodness...do u people hav to embarrass me as far as dat?? I've never ever visited her while she's working u know..and now when i visit her,she would be thinking i actually wanted to meet her coz i wanted free drinks?? How shameful is dat??? I'm so ashamed to talk to her right now..i seriously am..U guys made me look like i was some freaking beggar..I'm so tempted to put vulgarities in this post..but i know i shouldnt..making another mistake is never gonna erase the embarrassment..I mean,gosh...cant u guys make up another joke instead of dat one?

It's juz dat i feel like i've never met her for such a long time..I miss her...alot..

U dunno how suffocating it was when i was in Msia all alone in the inside with the different environment..I wanna meet her again and at least say out something sweet...dat's all i asked for...wat did i get instead?

"This isnt my shop..Mane leh free.."

Is dat sweet to u guys?

The worse thing is dat I keep remembering those words coz i've been dreaming to remember her every words if i ever meet her again after i got back from Msia safely..At least a surprising hi? or mayb i miss you? anything like dat? Or are u guys too dumb to think about such things?

Mayb u guys should have spared some thoughts for me..
Is dat too hard?

Haz

2007-12-31T15:48:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck...

im so fucking pissed off and really in a bad mood..what a way to end the year huh?

so much for spending the last moments happily...

wait..y m i so hyped up abt the end of year?

its just the same like any other day..

so y the big fuss?

i tink its just me...i was so hyped up wen i shud just be normal...

see wat happens when u get hyped up and got dissapointed?

u feel real fucked up..

another problem is that i just feel so powerless to help my fren..

she's been in bad mood like 2 weeks like tat..

and i really3 want to bring up her mood..

but i just dunno how..and its being a big deal for me..

cause she dun deserve to feel sad for sum1 tat doesn't care for her..

that guy is just an heartless bastard..

Arrgh!!

i duno y im feeling fucked up...i just hate my life now...

why im being affected by these emotions?

ok ok..lets plan..

first, u need to bring up her mood...but how? each time i wan to meet her she is in bad mood..if not her bad mood then she wake up late..if not wake up late then its bcos her mum dun let..

why is it so fucking hard?

and why im crazy abt gerls? why should i be? its just plain stupid..

Arrgh...thanks to my hormones im feeling like this..the feeling of wanting the opposite sex..and the anger from the disappointment..

the only way to bring up her mood is to meet her...and we cant even acheive that....

NEVER MIND..there is always tomorrow...and we have been saying that since what? before the holiday?

arrhg..even during skool..ah fuck...fuck everything la...

hard to meet her...fuck..

should i still remain patient and wait for that day?

maybe i should and stop being vulgar...

lets be positive ok?

there is like more than enough time for everything

but i wana cheer her up

looks like i gotta wait for the day to come..

and yarh...today is just like any other day..

i tink tats all now..

2007-12-31T02:09:00.000+08:00

ok...lets make an effort to post the last post of 2007...

yesterday was spent at Haz's crib...played guitar...practiced canon in d instead...haha..and got some pointers too...

alrity then..now for the last 2007 post edition...

Who do u tink is the best soccer player this season?

Christiano Ronaldo(actually wanted to put Nani but his best moment was the long range goal against Middlesbrough)

what is the most hated event this year?

ans: the price hike in everything..GST, Service tax..Bus..and recently taxi..

what is ur fave song this year?

ans: lonely september, plain white t's

how many new ppl u meet outside ?

1

i dunno what else to put...

but lemme summarise my 2007 year...

year started watiing for results..

went to clementi ite..

made new frens...

had lots of fun..

hang out wif RKO,Niap HZ most of the times..

soccer skills improved tremendously..

injured now..

christmas wif the guys..

stupid bet was imposed by N..

no intention of winning it..

hmm.wat else?

oh yarh..giving chocolate to hani..haha...

hmm...i tink tat sums it...

so now i hope tat i cud spend the last day today wif sum1 whom i deem very special..it cud be any1...the guys..ite frens...any1...or rather spend it alone..haha

till here

shadow

signing out

2007-12-27T09:47:00.000+08:00

Juz got back from malaysia..

and gosh..I miss seeing everyone here...

Mostly,i miss the ones dat has always been close to me..

I cant wait to meet them..

Hope i could meet them before it's too late or anything..aha..

ok,dat's not funny..

Talk about the trip to Malaysia..as usual,i went there by myself..i told ibu dat i'm going Malaysia right before i step out of the house and she was like surprised ah..then she asked,how long am i gonna stay there..i answered,one week..aha..she was of coz,shocked..one week in malaysia and i only informed her a few minutes before i leave the house..wow..wat a son..lolz..but after dat,i really feel like i've done ibu wrong ah..should hav informed her sooner..aha..haizzz..anyway,this time i didnt bring along my guitar or lappie..juz too lazy to carry..and it's quite scary bringing bulky things after u pass the Msian checkpoint coz there's alot of dark alleys..it was night time..

Met ayie at City Square and went straight to his house..actually,no ah..didnt went straight..coz after getting down the bus,we laze around with Syafiq(ayie's lepak fren) and then straight home..ayie was kinda sleepy so he accidentally fall asleep..looks okay to me ah at first..but in the next hour,there were like 10 mosquitoes flying around..gosh..i cant sleep..i kept getting bitten by them..i was cursing ayie so badly..coz he didnt burn the mosquito coil for the night..but he was so much sound asleep..gosh..dat's the only thing i always remember,my every first night there is always the worse..the same thing happened to me in the previous trip..=(

Cut long2 story short..i wasnt expecting myself to be staying there for a week..coz my holidays are only for 2 weeks..but wat the hell..we gotta train and perform...so yea..we really trained and trained for like 4 days or so...Overall,i hav to say the training was so much more fun than the performance..coz we got ourselves a humiliating stage at the majlis perkahwinan..i'll post the pic at the end of the entry..

The most irritating issue was...We were barred from using any distortion..dammit..

There was a song where ayie put some distortion in,and an auntie shouted at the end of the song.."main lagu 60an!"...WOW..wat a freaking loser..We have been playing 60an eversince the start and we only played one rock song..why the hell the auntie hav to be so freaking irritating sia?? And when we were playing d song,teenage girls started running out of the house and smiled at us..we were like so happy ah..i mean why not,right? We could entertain people with the song we ourselves hav interest in playing..Even the bride and the groom has left the pelamin already..Wat a damn loser..lolz..

Eventually we got fed up with the schedule of our songs too coz there's another performer,a solo performer on the day..so it's like after we performed 2 songs,it would then be his turn..but sometimes he juz took advantage of us like instead of playing 2 songs,he did 3..and the thing dat's bugging me the most was dat each of his song is like 10mins long..and ours is only 2-3 mins..gosh..Dat day was juz a disaster..dat's why we kept telling each other,the trainings were so much better..coz we had fun..we played alot of headbaning songs..the ones we like..for example..I'm Not Okay,I.C.U,Nurhafidah and many more..

After returning all the instruments back to Hibri's house (Hibri = our drummer cum guitarist cum basis cum keyboardist cum violinist ) me and ayie help him set up back his jamming room instead of juz leaving the stuff on the floor..dunno why ah,i was juz tempted to help him with the instruments settings..aha..yea..After that,we had dinner in his house with the berkat dat was given followed by his family sending us home..

While in the car,it was quite dark since we were sitting at the back seats..i saw Hibri's hand infront of me with something in it..i thought he was making a joke or maybe he got nothing to do..But only to realise he was actually trying to give me a RM 100 note..So i asked ah.."Wat's the money for? U think funny ah?",looking very confused..Then he answered.."It's for the performance we did this morning.." Then his father said out loud from the driver's seat "Thanks for everything..Without you guys,we dun think it would be a success"..lolz....a RM 100 juz for playing some shitty songs?? 8 songs to be exact...AHA! of coz i was happy..i was jumping for joy..

Anyway,moving on...i was thinking dat day would be the last day we'll be meeting Hibri..but nope..since each of us got RM 100 from d performance,we decided to make a demo tape out of it.. 1In Singapore,recording one song could cause us $50..which we of coz hesitate whether we should go for it or not..but in Msia,1 HOUR OF RECORDING = RM30..which is equivalent to a jamming of 1 hour in Singapore..aha..can u guys imagine dat??

We could play so many songs in 1 hour..If we were to record those 3 songs in Singapore,it could cause us $150..which also means RM300..so instead of RM 30 dat we paid for..we have to pay 10x more..aha man..u guys juz dunno how we lucky bastards felt..

Home sweet home the next day..=) But before i reached the Malaysian checkpoint,ayie brought me to a music shop..i was wondering why he brought me there..coz i never had any desire of buying original albums..so as him..Suddenly,he took out our demo tape from his bag and gave it to the shopkeeper..Gosh..he actually applied our band for a gig..After their boss listened to all our 3 songs,at that very minute,he said he is gonna put us in a gig/concert called Konsert Di Selatan dat's coming soon..and he said it's gonna be indoor and there's gonna be around 400-900 audience..OK..This is the moment where i thought the world fast forward itself itself for awhile..My goodness...dat damn cousin of mine didnt even approach me about applying for a gig..not mentioning a BIG one too..gosh..of coz i was shocked ah..if he were to tell me at least 15 minutes earlier or something about passing the demo tape to the shop,at least i would be ready ah..dammit..if it's an outdoor,like the one near esplanade..wat people call it..powerhouse? ya..ok la..dat would be ok..but an indoor concert? my goodness..dat's gonna be a disaster..My bandmates are juz 15 years old..aha..damn jokerzzz..

So yep..i gotta make another trip to Msia again this March..for the performance..still cant believe it's real ah..i mean like..siao rite..400-900 audience..and i'm scared at the same time too..Wat if anything cock up? haizzz...mcm mane ni...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Blank Memories~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Find me =P

How sucky is d stage???? LOLZ!! Got tikar somemore..aha..brrr

I always find myself not sleeping at night..
Coz i miss alot of people...especially her...and not forgetting...my mum..
I really2 wanna hug my mum when i reach home..
but i guess i juz didnt hav the luck..my mum was half asleep and laying flat on the bed when i return..haizz...nvm..
Anyway,wat i cant stand the most is dat..i kept dreaming of her..
To tell u d truth,i dreamt about her for like 4 times in dat very week..so it's like,out of the 7 days,i dreamt of her for like 4 days..gosh..how bad is dat..

I'm still thinking...should i call her..at least to say hi? and tell her i'm back?
Or mayb she doesnt even care in the first place? nvm...guess i'll juz stay quiet..

P.S. You can never clap with one hand

2007-12-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday chrissmtas...

went out despite nursing an injury..

go town area..walk2...

*yawns*

hehe..

oh ya..chicken zal...ask my bro go play soccer wif u guys rite? assclown...haha!

well..i dun care since i predict tat u guys will miss my presence on the field..hur hur.. ^_^

boxing day was a bore...

f.y.i boxing day is the day after christmas..

i soo want to shop for clothes...

but no money

*sad*...

injury getting well...but i cant play yet...doubtful...hehe..

shadow

signing out

2007-12-23T08:41:00.000+08:00

Ouch!!!

soccer yesterday put me into injury..

the wound is oozing some thingy..it still hasn't dry up..

hmm..maybe it would take a week or two for it to start recovery...

so sad..i cant go out during christmas...

have to stay in bed...

not ur fault hz..wasnt intentional...

so my on form run has come to a stop...

was enjoying my latest run of on-form performance..

scoring goals...slick passing...bla bla...

but since im down with injury...

hope i can play like before

shadow

sigining out